yeah i am..

I've just realized that I'm one troubled girl. My life is made up of horse shit. Like everything that I go through just adds up to my sorrow and the pile of shit. I always feel screwed and only a few things would make me feel really happy. When I have my Dad around, when I have ******* around me, and when I get what I want. But life is screwed up by the world so therefore, we don't always get what we want, do we? It's not that I'm spoilt or whatsoever. It's just really unfair that my life has to be controlled by boundaries, Mothers and they are like masters of the Sim. Gotta do what I'm assigned.. It's shit.

So today, I had chemistry extra lesson and well, cause Theo and I have the same Chemistry teacher, we had the class together. And god! ***** was like trying to grab his attention. Fuck! No one wants to hear your bullshit. Shut Up. I'm not trying to be mean but like you like him right? So tell him than say friggin' lame sentences. It gets on people's nerves. And poor Theo has put up with the nonsense. No one wants it. Take it back and piss off. You are like blinded by love or something. He doesn't like you. Get the picture?

Anyway, my common tests are coming and the stress to do great is getting heavier.. If I could hold on, I'll survive. I have absolutely no confidence to ace my tests. It's the confidence thing. Like I'm not sure whether the answers I write down are right or wrong. I need help!

Am I being a bitch now?
[Do not answer the question]

So lately, I did something bad and now I have gotten my retribution. I shouldn’t have done it but I did. And therefore, I must pay… this stinks but it can’t be helped.

I gonna change my phone! Haha. Well, I’m thinking of Cheryl’s and Charmaine’s phone but do they mind? Do you guys mind??

This is for you..

This is specially for Ziyang.. since you are such a loyal visitor of my useless blog. And always get disappointed when you come, this is for you.. haha!

So the O level results are out and Hannah did really well. So did Chork. I’m so proud of him. From a 17 to an 8. haha.. he’s is so smart. Hehe.. Hannah’s gonna try to stay in Hwa Chong. And I told Chork to try out for Hwa Chong. I hope he is able to make it. Brice did okay and I guess Tim’s gonna try out for AC. I mean he can. Through Soccer. Yeah… Sharina had a pretty average score. But I’m not sure if she’s satisfied with what she got.

I just realized something. I love talking to Theodore. It’s just so easy. Like I can say whatever I want and he’ll be okay with it. But the only problem is that I feel he doesn’t have opinions. He doesn’t really say much. All he does is answer the questions or make lil remarks. It’s all so bootzy. But I plan on inviting him to church next Sunday. He says he doesn’t mind. But if he feels lazy, then he wouldn’t go. Haha.. but I’ll try my very hardest to make him go!! Haha.. since I don’t really get a chance to speak to him in school, I’ll speak to him outside of school.. hehe^^

So today, Ziyang taught me how to do a drum roll.. is it one word? Oh well..
Haha.. it was pretty funny. But I cant really get the gist of the beat and how to drum it as good as he can.. I guess practice will do the trick.. I will master the roll! Haha.. whatever..

Is this long enough to make you feel less disappointed? Lemme know!!