Fun.. i was being stupid.

What is it all about?
Fun, is it the only one?
That helps me cope,
keeps me afloat?

Fun.
I love it when it involves guns.
Shooting people down,
making them run.

The opposite of fun,
is nuf.
You think you're so tough?
Well, it kinda makes me barf.

What have you got that i don't?
Besides that i'm fun and you're not?
Doing what you're told.
I bet you were being bought.

Yes. How fun it is.
To make people pissed.
Making lame remarks
and getting shot down be punks.

My church.. just so you know, Alive Community Church.

I only stepped in when i was 12.
and i felt really welcomed.
They made me seem important
and i felt the hearts warming.

My sister was there with me too.
That made me feel something completely new.
For a moment, it was too much.
I thought it wouldn't last.

Their praise turned me inside out.
Their worship turned me outside in.
i soon felt that i was spinning round
until i could not feel a single thing.
It soon came to an end.
I thought i could no longer feel God's presence again.

Along came Yvonne.
She helped me see
that problems didn't matter
when God had all the power
to blow my troubles away.
Boy, did i feel better!

What an awesome experience.
It'll forever be entrenched to my heart.
And I'll never forget this church
which helped me realise my love for Thee.

The one and only, ACC!

friends.. uh huh..

Some friends are gross,
some are weird.
But those that i despise
are the ones who jeer.

The worst of the lot would be --------a [ just pronounce the 'a' ]
for she is such a dweeb,
i can't even give way.
Would she ever stop for a minute to think that,
that ain't right?
To be fussing around all day and night?

If you think I'm being mean,
just stop, look and see.
If you know me,
then you'll know I'm really patient.
And now, i can't even stand this person!

Because of this reason,
my mood's displeasin' .
But once I'm older,
I'll get over.
While Miss Nasty is getting even colder.

No basic manners or principles.
Her poor parents.
They must feel do discouraged.
Cheer up, it's okay.
Leave her be.
Wait, you'll see.
She'll be dealt with ungentlely.
Not by me but by a stranger that will never flee.

Herself.

My uttmost cry [Prayer]

Oh Lord,
I plead that you hear my cry.
To see what my heart desire.
I cannot handle the situation.
I'm bounded by my own limitations.
There ain't no other reason.
I wanna be in thy presence.

I need you more than ever now.
Even more than i did before.
The truth be told,
i rather skip town or even fall.
It's too much to take!
Worse than some blasting debate.
I would hide or run away,
but you've made me realised that,
that ain't the way.
I look up to the sky,
the sun shining in my eyes,
and i seriously wonder why.

How can someone be so judgmental
against the will of God?
Judging the house of the Lord.
Isn't that a major flaw?
Why didn't i stand up to defend your name?
It's now not mine to gain.

Forever trying to find the answer.
But with her pulling me even lower,
I feel like dirt under the earth,
stuck in a black universe.
Who can I turn to, besides you?
What else can I do?

I want her to disappear from all i can see,
but i know that is not possible.
I need time to be alone.
Away from whatever that's here.
Take me away! Far away!
So i can be close to you all day.

My time ain't up yet,
but i feel that it is.
Why is it so hard to live?
Life is a gift from you.
But i guess it's mine to choose.
Whether to be true or to be screwed.

Loving ain't easy and you know it!
My life is all so cheezy and i'm getting dizzy.
Just to be me, it's all the same.
Flying high, being chained.
How ironic it is.
Sarah, the person always blamed.

Love..

Love ain't easy, love's real tough.
Love's so hard, it makes me barf.
5 was number, now it's 4.
and for that, i thank the Lord!

It's the B's and the J's.
Who am i to them?
It's kinda hard to say.
Whether or not I'll be with Mr right,
it up to those who stays.

My billboard lives!
Unless 3 names are strike off,
I shall be amidst.
How am i suppose to think
when something i can't control
is making me bleed?

Oh.. the pain and agony!
My love for you would be true.
If you're the one,
please say, “ I do.”
Forgetting the past and remembering the new,
making up for times which were screwd.

The last 4 names,
I shan't reveal.
For i shall wait till time is still,
wishing that I'll be with you.
The choice ain't mine to choose
but the Lord's to deal.


*product of Sarah.*

for audrey and jo..

gee.. today, i kinda gave a very big wrong impression to my two friends, audrey and jo. i shared with them the dream i had last night and gave them a major wrong impression that isnt very good.
i dreamt that i went to the polo shop and saw this polo tee that cost $138. and i only had $131. so it wasnt enough and so i had to go back and get the tee another day.
and then i told Aud and Jo that i always have enough money with me. !!!! but like that because i like finding out the prices 1st.. i aint a extravegent freak.. ahhh!!! sorie ya'll.. gave you a money spending freak sarah impression =X
i suddenly thought of it and like.. i dont want you guys to feel that i'm some freak, from another planet, who likes money for the wrong reasons.. kay'?

once you read this, please tag!!! haha.. so i know.

thankew..

anyway, nothing much happened today..

sweet.

today was pretty fun. we went to watch a movie, the cave. my goodness.. it scared the day out of me.. yeah.. JJ, YZ, Jon[not sure why he suddenly came, but i can infer], DY, KaiL and I.. it was wayy fun.. i think.
the show creeped me and KaiL out and like the guys have the cheek to show us their smug looking face.. we were screeaming during the show.. yeah.. it was freaky.
and like i promised JJ i'll talk to him.. but like Jon and YZ were talking to him, so i couldnt really talk.. yeah.. i'm sorie. we'll go out again and i shall talk to you kay'?
sorie!!
so like i'm gonna be so dead.. havent touched my term-break homework. whoa! i'm gonna be kill..
and cheryl has cramped my mind with the "aye'. you know, Brother Bear..
haha..
it's so cute..
and like on monday, we gotta wear the stupid ties? how stupid is that??? like a freaking blue tie, with a background of white.
YUCK!!!
anyway, i shall be going now..

* i'm still waiting for your birthday to come. cant wait..