leave me alone

i have never felt more defeated in my life.
first this morning, B.lim [the disipline mistress], was standing at the area where all the student walk in from. she was doing uniform check up. and of all the days, she caught my for wearing the wrong coloured bra. and she was all like, " give me 3 good reasons why i should let you in?"
here are my 3 reasons! 1st, you dont own the school. 2nd, i bet you're like wearing a black, strapless bra. and 3rd, why are you looking at my boobs?! =\ haha..
Well anyway, so she asked me to call my mom to bring me the right coloured bra. and i said, " i'm sorry but that is not possible."
you see, i just patched things back with my mom. i would go to the extend of killing myself to mantain the peace with her. so i refused to call my mom and i told B.lim that it's either she let me go or just send me home and i will change.
oh, and by the way, i was already running late for my prep for debate.
so whatever, B.lim then told me, "don't quarell with me just because you're a debator." haha.. hey, i wasn't quarelling with her.
so she called my mom and told her that i had to go home.. blah blah blah. all the nonsense.
i went back. and on my way out, YZ was puzzled why i was leaving school so soon when i arrived only a couple of minutes ago. and i told him the story.

took a cab home. changed. took a cab back. swift and quick. spent 15 bucks on cab in less than an hour, or half an hour even.

so i got back to school. had to report to B.lim and went to collect my blazer. i went up to the leadership room where we were doing our last minute preparations. then we left at 0945hours.
We took another cab down to SIM(Singapore Institute of Management). we waited for your turn to go for our auditions for the television competition called "The Arena". Jasmine, Renu and I were really stressed so we went off to the girls' room to have some fun. we play a fool among the mirrors. =) it was funny.
anyway, we went to do our auditions and oh boy, we pretty much screwed..
well, it's the truth. we didnt make it.
All of us felt really defeated and well, we all turned silent.

whatever man. it's over anyhow.
my team and i, we're gonna thrash the julia gabriels!

the 411

well, let's see.. where do i start?
1st, my grades. it's bad. really bad.. i know you might hear many people saying this but when i say it, you really have no idea how bad my grades are. dont even try comparing my grades to your 'bad' grades.. seriously. i'm not going to share with you what they are because it's really kinda embarrassing. and it makes me even more depressed.
so MOVING ON!
2nd, there's this pink menace growing in our eco garden. the eco boys have been observing the menace since it was small. but it was so weird. during recess, we went to the eco pond for fun. and then we saw the pink thing. i remembered cheng wei posting something about this pink thing on his blog so we went to check it out.. then renu took something to hit it and the pink thing starting bleeding!! we stood there in shock. wth. it was really bleeding. it may not have been blood but it was definitely bleeding in it's own way. and when you hit it, there's this soft cracking sound.. so i went to try killing it. gah! i freaked out when i was hitting the poor thing but i continued the hit it.. well, just a couple of hit more.. and then i really freaked and stop.
we wanted to know what it was so we waited for the eco boys to come and explain things to us but they didnt show so we went up.
and when we went to check out SS paper, which i failed, we asked an eco boy[Well, jerry] what it was.. he said they were eggs! "eggs of some monster." so i told him to try cracking the eggs.. haha.. and i told him what he did.. =D
3rd, my mom is giving me a damn hard time. she makes it hard to live. i'm serious. she read my diary and now, she's using it against me.. i dont wanna talk much about this either.. it makes me kinda angry. and i cant cry anymore. out of tears..

so this is it.. my update.
keep it real.

this is going to be painful..

WHAT THE FUCK?!!!?
damn.. 'friends' can just be such fucking sly, cunning pieces of shit..
like what the hell man.. who knew that bitchface could do such a thing behind my back.. and to discover that such things has been going on behind my back..
FUCK YOU SHITFACE!!!!!! YOU FUCKING CHICKEN HEAD!
who knew such things could happened behind my back.. and to find it our from him.. i thank god that he's my close buddy..
thought you could get away? FUCK YOU!
i'm gonna make your life so miserable. you know i'm capable of such things..
i may look weaker than you on the outside but you know that i can do GREAT and PAINFUL things to people.. and get away with it..
WATCH IT, BITCHFACE!