The Magic Flute.

-this post was intentionally left blank-

...just like your brain.

noo. i'm kidding.

but i really do not know what to blog about today. cause i have nothing cool or anything to say.

nothing has been going on. just thinking about schools. and how i'm going to get my ass into a university.

anyhoo, that aside. i went to WAFFLETOWN today :D its absolutely fab. and the cool thing is, its actually kinda cheap. well, to put it nicely, affordable.

its located at balmoral plaza. i think i spelt it right. just ask for directions and you'll get there :) simple.

so Trae was talking to my sister today and he was like "i broke up with sarah." and Hannah freaked. and so he was like "haha just kidding." and she went like "geeez trae. thats not funny." 

lol i thought i was tho. but like if we really did break up. lets just say the world doesnt have to worry about shortage of water :)

cant wait to see mah bytches next week!!

toodles.

xoxo

get in and get out.

Angel.

flabdanggit. sleep finally. 

conclusion: there was no hallucination but i did lose focus within seconds. and i dozed off randomly but like for a minute or so. so it still counts alright! lol. all i did was watch movies after movies after movies to kill time and trust me it helps. i prolly could have rough it out longer if i had redbull but THANKS DAD for refusing to get me any when i needed some. i could have died. lol

anyway, now that i've got my sanity back. time to tell you about the return of the EX-BOYFRIEND! *gasps*

yeh. Daniel spoke to me today. it was fun and all. but then i thought, so what if he came back and i'm still almost utterly in love with that dude. it doesnt matter cause now, i'm with Trae and he's awesome. they're both great in their own ways and well, i am confused but i'm just not going to ponder too much on it or i might just land myself in a big bowl of trouble.

so okay for the fun of it, here's a short clip. and at the same time, i'm advertising for DKNY. go pick up a dkny Cozy today. the best kinda of cardigan you'll ever find :) 

and HELLO SHIRR AND VII. i'm sorry i'm so cheap making one song for the both of y'all to share. ahahaha but here you go. hope you like it. sorry it aint that fantastic cause i did it while not sleeping :] its still presentable i think..

did i mention that i screwed up the 2nd chorus and forgot the lyrics? heh.

and just let me say, it's harder than i expected. i'm soo sorry for being so accusatory last time. ask me about it if you're smart and i might just tell you what its about.

xoxo

bad habits die hard.

Thunder.

utterly psychotic.

i'm 1 minute away from 48 hours without sleep. and to be honest, i am kinda losing track of everything. and quite obviously i want sleep. not sure if i'll be able to sustain tonight.

we shall see.. lol.

wish me luck.

xoxo

i dont trust you anymore

Take This To Heart.

hahah while talking to vii, i've decided to test out this theory that was presented to me before.

my friend was giving a speech about sleep. he said that if a person doesnt sleep for 48 hours, he/she will start to lose focus. and if the person doesnt get sleep for 72 hours, they will start to hallucinate.

i'm thinking i should test this theory to see if it's true..

okay so i've broken this night. 1 down. 2 more to go.

lets see how it goes... :]

MySpace Countdowns

xoxo

there are more important things in life.

Lycanthrope.

i am back. did you miss me? :]

aww. missed you too!!

anyhoo. the trip was pretty awesome and i love the fact that i have my own camera. i could take anything i wanted. the feeling is just different i guess. but its truly awesome.

what do you want fool.

basically what you see when you first step in :] awesome eh?

now i shall move into closer details of the 600+++ a night room.

these are business class closets. cause inside the closet has stuff for like your suits. they've even got shoe-shine. lol.

oh come on! a tele mounted on the wall. it doesnt get any better than this. [dont go against me fool]

the study table or whatever you call it yeh.

hannah advertising for the super comfy beds. lool

...advertising for the bowl? what a pretty bowl it is. 

the bathtub.

the mirror place thing..

the theme park. what i see when i look out the window :]

looks fun eh?

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so i went skating and wasnt as perfect as i expected it to be. there were a whole bunch of awesome figure skaters on saturday. and well, i'm a lot less of what they are. anyhoo, i still trained and stuff. 

okay so here's a random video of a random spin. i hate this video editor. hate it hate it hate it. but something screwed up with my mac and this is all i've was left with useless iMovie HD. thats why the clip is so abrupt. but still. at least i made one for y'all :] 

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we went to the bar to watch the Man Utd vs LiverFOOL match.

as you all might well know. it was 4-nothing. i mean COME ON! how on earth did man utd lose. this is ridiculous.

random pictures i know.

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so that's all i'll say for now. i mean, its 0211 now. and i've got to write emily's letter... HEY EMILY! ily x

xoxo

striving hard to succeed

Please.

i'm heading to Sunway again tomorrow. should be wicked awesome cause this time i'll be bringing my skates with me and i'll own the rink :] by this, i'm referring to figure skating (quite obviously. because *sarah's back on the ice. heh.

yes that is me.

just one quick note.

HELLO SHIRLYN :] i'm doing a cover for you. i hope you'll like it.

it'll be up soon. i only learnt it today.

xoxo

bitchiness never gets old. never.

La Vida Sin Amor

ahahahaha NO SUPPLEMENTARY PAPERS FOR ME :] 

just thought i'd let you know

xoxo

thats not my worst worry yet.

I Can't Name You

this is for Janey. again. lol thought i'd make this cause you liked the song and its a great song so yay. i did it. just a snippet tho. hope you like it :] xx

xoxo

Hurry Up & Wait.

i dont know what i'm doing anymore. i try to act like i'm okay with everything. like every thing's alright. when the truth of the matter is that i'm tired inside. tired of everything i've been going thru just to be a good friend. i tried.

what would you do if you were in my position? i dont think anyone survives that long.

i just want to let go of everything. let it all go and never look bad. no regrets. no nothing. just forget it all cause it just aint all that worth it in the end. enough of wasting time. time to get on with the more important things in life.

if you cant trust a friend, what kind of friend would that be? no friend at all i would say.

take my words seriously and you'll live a less worry-some life. 

be real picky. seriously.

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so anyway. today i shall show you a few of my friend's art pieces because i just think its soo utterly spectacular!

hope you enjoyed that. 

find more @ http://bluecoffee.deviantart.com/

xoxo

just kill me now. 

The Sound of Silence

there's only so much that a person can withstand until he/she gives up and cant go on. but how will you know when you've reached that point? we try everyday to help, support, cheer people up but in the end, it all just goes down the drain. then what is the point of talking. what is the point in giving them anything at all. it's not value-adding anyway.

what is the point.

i miss trae..

i shall not bore you anymore. 

saturday was shit yet it wasnt bad. some pictures that i stole from janey's blog :P

tim and utt. utt's face is circled xD ahaha

a pretty cool drink. not drunkable with :]

i lave janey ♥

xoxo

i'm not myself anymore.

*my Niki Mini

meet my friend, Bob :)


Nike Zoom Sister One+, The ultimate training shoe for women

http://nikewomen.com.sg

xoxo

*My Not So Secret Lives ending

Breathe Slow

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i wished i knew.

i wished i understood.

why the things in life

arent always good.

i pray hard and hope for the best

but every time i try,

it just becomes one big mess.

i look for a way out 

to salvage my soul

even if i escape,

i cant seem to outrun the cold.

it worries me so

i cant see our friendship withering

our only option is to grow.

but now the world has changed

the thorns are none

i am so amazed!

because the HIV is gone.

i laugh and cry

tears of joy

the list goes on

for you and i.

Trey was awesome

he carried me thru

there's nothing more i can do

but just to smile and say,

thank you.

there's no one better for me

and there's never going to be.

it is you that i love,

for all of eternity.

i cant say that every thing is back to normal

but we do our best

and try not to be too formal.

what happened, happened. 

nothing's going to change that.

contagious by touch, it might not be

but that does not mean we let go easily.

Eleanor was lucky

she could have been hurt

the next time she does it,

i'll make sure she's alert.

we would do well not to do what she did.

it is very risky

unless you want to be dead meat.

HIV is no laughing matter

in fact, we should read up

to understand it better.

take necessary precautions

just to be safe

and make sure he's clean

you dont want a stinker on your bed.

this is a virus that cant be cured

we can put it at bay

but it will never go away.

because the HIV virus is here to stay.

it is smart and will take control

but it is up to us to stand up and take hold

of the situation that makes us despair

this is the truth

so everyone, beware.

the fight is not yet won

but with the help of many

we can conquer it all.

dont sit back, watching people die

get out there, do something

you'll never know unless you try.

when hard times come

do not fret

just breathe slow

and you'll realize to path

that you should go.

-Jesse

xoxo

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get involved with Jesse and Trey today @ www.notsosecretlives.com

Halo

i've never cried so much.

the thing is, i chose law because my mom always wanted to be a lawyer. she got accepted into law school [she's really smart] but she didnt take it because she could pay for it and so i wanted to fulfill the dream for my mom so that she could be truly happy. just think - if i do law, it's like SHE'S doing law cause i'm part of who she is.

but after this semester's exams, i realized that law and i dont click. so i told my parents and it was really hard for me. 

why is it that when i do economics, i enjoy it and even tho i skipped more lectures than anyone else, i still think that i faired quite well. and like i can relate to economics. its like, i just glide thru the studying and i understand. 

just like that.

Law, however.. completely different story. i GRIND thru my exams. and its really obvious, i feel, when you are cut out to do something and when you're not.

People who are cut out for law will just walk out of the exam saying that it was good. and when they tell you how they answered their essay questions, you just know that they were meant for it.

i, on the other hand, had a really hard time relating to the subjects. after a year of studying it, i realize that law and i dont go.

so after this morning's ordeal, my parents supported me looking for other school options and i  did. mother said that i could take the SAT test and apply for an american school.

back to where i started.

so here are my choices:

- Colorado State University

- Georgia State University

or...

i'll just go to community college.

i personally love the idea of CSU. for obvious reason that my boyfriend is there. 

but thats beside the point. its one of the better universities in america and its just a 9 hour drive away from my grandmom ♥ love her. 

anyway, all that aside. my plan is this.

that i wait for my results to come out. and if i'm right about economics [because i might just be delusioned that i'm good at it] then i might just change school.

however, i hurt about the fact that my friends would change. and i love my friends [jane, shir, vii + zai] buckets and buckets. i swear if you think your friends are good, mine are AWESOME! 

shit. i just realized we dont have a group picture. you guys~

*moments later..

yay! found some :]

yeh. so i'm really just weighing my options now.  oh well.

xoxo

Just for Jane. For Now.

Taken Up

okay so i have a criminal law paper tomorrow. its the last one thank God! but after reading so many murder/homicide cases, studying them, i came up with a theory.

just follow me thru this...

imagine - what if you were poor. and not just poor but DIRT, BEYOND ANY HELP, LIKE FREGGIN' PSYCHO INSANELY poor? 

do you see a little bit of yourself in him, the london bum?

nowhere to sleep? always worried in the night about your next meal?

well, goood news for you. i've derived a super cool, solid, bloody awesome plan to make your life totally better.

READY?

go to prision.

its as simple as that.

i'm serious. 

why arent you listening to me?

look.

you're given food - you dont have to hunt no more.

you're given "bath time" - you dont have to stink any longer.

seriously.

you make new criminal friends that could teach you tactics on how to steal, after all people learn from their mistakes. you cant ask for better friends... come on.

the prison will assign you a job to do. now you can lift up your head with dignity and say "hey. i've got a job :) ", "me, a beggar? noooo. i have a pretty comfortable life."

here's the best part, with the advancement of technology, you're giving a whole array of prisons to choose from.

economy class for you perhaps?

or maybe a first class cell?

there's even budget cells. AMAZING!

so what are you waiting for? time to put crime to action! and get your butt in one of these absolutely free hotels that gives you a better lifestyle than just begging all the time.

do you know that begging is illegal in singapore?

yeh. you can get fined for begging.

so go to prision. stop wasting time. your life has only just begun.

crimes you can commit that will give you a life time prison-ship:

#1- culpable homicide not amounting to murder

#2- robbery + assualt

why not you go figure out. and if you manage to end up with the death sentence, guess what!

all your problems are solved then. 

good luck poor people

red bull gives you wings..

xoxo

Shine On

i'm supposed to be sleeeping 'cause i'm waking up at 4 to continue.. well, start.. studying for my paper which is at 1430 - thank the good Lord.

so here are the pictures :]

this is the wonderful lobby of Sunway Lagoon

where the sweet life begins.
...the lounge. [its not too bad]
oh look! snowflakes :Dthey have flat screen teles.. how pretty.
buttons in the lift :)

which brings us down to...

smoked salmon for breakfast?

Pastries :] its pretty obvious which is my favorite

nice array of greeeeeeeens... NOT.

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moving onto the looo. you only know how truly great the place is by the quality of.. heh. yeh.

more buttons but from a different side of the hotel

going down to the carpark :)
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and what is the journey without our trusty steed. obviously its photoshopped to look pretty. pops wouldnt ever drive a car that hot. LOL
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Visit Sunway Lagoon today! truly the holiday experience [even tho i didnt experience it...much.]

good things dont come cheap

xoxo