Keep You Much Longer.

i dont know where i am anymore. everything's just all going so fast and i feel like i cant keep up and i'm sooo tired that i dont try.

today's entry shall be interesting for all you interested in my better half :)

so recently, he went to his senior prom. but i am stuck here.. so who did he go with? i wonder...

she's called Sam Nail

tsk tsk. get your hands off my man. ...byatch.

lol i'm kidding. its cool.

Trae's kinda short eh?

ahaha my smurf.

Trae & Sam. they look cute no?

moving away from the prom.

i shall tell you a lil' bout my other half.

teegan, step-dad, trae, mom, tylin.

2006:

Trae's soo small :)

so thats about all i have to share with you about trae.

how about you?

xoxo

the greatest 7 months of my life.

Dont Cry for Pain.rnn

today's entry is going to be pretty long.

there are some things i have to talk about. so brace yourselves!

i'll start with thursday:

i had to work on thursday yeh and it was pretty fun but then things got super crazy at the later part. psycho on SOO many levels.

apparently, one of the managers fancies me. and before that i was thinking, wow i have a pretty cool work-lationship with all the managers. [CLIMB CLIMB CLIMB]

like i guess i'm the only cheap laborer who talks to them like they're my friends.

for example, this manager, Barry, was complaining that he was tired and shit. so i was like "you're a dude. suck it up." and he was like "suck it up? nobody ever talks to me that way." and so i laughed and walked away. but he wasnt angry i think. who knows.. lool.

okay so about the manager fancying me. lets just say i now know how work place scandals are like. creeeeeepy i swear. i could barely sleep that night. so i'm telling you now do not bring it up if you see me. i will send you to your grave.

forget friday. sucked. served a wedding function, seeing other people get married and me still unwedded. pffft. and i wanted to get out after work but my parents decide that nooooo i want her to go home. PFFFFT. get lost friday no one wants you.

...freak.

YESTERDAY :)

Zat went back to malaysia already. was fantastic having him here. really fun.

went to coffee club in the afternoon and i was trying to get my mosaic for Understanding Art. and then i thought about the idea of using pictures to create another picture.

i'm still figuring out how to get this done.

had a banana hazelnut latte. wasnt too bad.

hear me hear me! i joined singapore idol for the frivolity of it.

thought i'd take a snap at it.

so thats pretty much the end of what i have to say.

xoxo

having fun at prom trae?

NAT GEO.

aww. today was awesome. i really needed it.

had dinner with JJ. and in case y'all dont know who he is, he's my best friend. we've been friends for 10 years now. good times.. good times.

the coolest thing i thought was that even tho we havent seen each other for pretty long, we still have things to talk about.

he's great.

so after dinner, we went bar hopping. which was really fun. no heavy drinking cause we both got school the following day. hangovers not allowed.

credits go to JANE. thanks for lending me your camera while mine's in surgery :) lave you x

so after church i went over to janey's place to chill cause i had buckets of time to kill.

beary :D jane thinks i'm nuts. ask her why.

the first bar of the night.

totally meant to be besties dont you think?

next stop: harry's

well, thats all the pictures for the night :)

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here's a lil something special for y'all to see

ME, 4 years ago.

bet you aint seen nothing like this!

sar-zilla! watch out bitches.

xoxo

cant wait till next weekend.

Free.

insecurity is a painful thing.

in my opinion, worse than anger; worse than sadness.

just sitting down worrying if he'll ever leave your side.

whether you can get over worrying tonight

about the undetermined future.

"what if-s" forever filling your head.

there's just no end to it.

no doubt he reassures you of his love

but there's no stopping insecurity from overwhelming you.

you just cant help but worry.

being assured that he loves you dearly

so why do you fear that he might leave.

terrified, you fail to breathe.

trust that everything you've done to this point is more than sufficient.

everything that you've given up,

everything that you've become,

and everything that you're going to be

is good enough for him.

it wont get easier

just remember why you loved him in the first place.

come what may,

you still love Trae.

xoxo

i've got pretty nails.. do you?

Comatose.

sometimes when one thing goes wrong, everything else seems to go down with it.

right now, i just feel done for. like whatever that i have done has just gone down the drain.

YES I AM JEALOUS.

lol. i'm just a girl.

she is soo pretty. and i am sooo dead.

i think you can click to enlarge.

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COMPARE! sweet nibblets. i'm far off.

shiiiiit. what am i suppose to do!

xoxo

help me.

the man.

Lesson #101:

Give up, just quit, because in this life, you can't win.

Yeah, you can try, but in the end you're just gonna lose, big time!

because the world is run by the Man.

The Man, oh, you don't know the Man? He's everywhere.

In the White House... down the hall... your MOM?

She's the Man.

And the Man ruined the ozone, he's burning down the Amazon, and he kidnapped Shamu and put her in a chlorine tank!

And there used to be a way to stick it to the Man.

It was called rock 'n roll, but guess what, oh no, the Man ruined that, too, with a little thing called MTV!

So don't waste your time trying to make anything cool or pure or awesome 'cause the Man is just gonna call you a fat washed up loser and crush your soul.

So do yourselves a favor and just GIVE UP!

Jai Ho!

when you are late, you waste other people's time.

news! news!

i am engaged :) well, informally. but still i'm still rather happy.

lol get real sarah. 

still tho, think about it. i'm 18 and 'engaged'. kinda cool yeh?

i think so too.

ahaha naa. its not true. just for fun. FOR NOW! xP

*sarah: :

10:42:07

i'm engaged. are you?

*sarah: :

10:42:12

hehe

Trae Hartman:

10:44:09

not yet

Trae Hartman:

10:44:17

(gets on one knee)

Trae Hartman:

10:44:31

will you (gets pecked by a seagull in the eye)

Trae Hartman:

10:44:43

marry (mom walks by)

Trae Hartman:

10:44:45

MOM

*sarah: :

10:45:19

poor thing.

moving on!

chronophillia; necrophillia

nicky admitted to re-bonding his hair. i forgive you liar :)

chron, you embarrass me.

germanboy. cute. isnt that right jane? lool

xoxo

setting my life straight again.

Hallelujah.

hi shir. its for you :) hope you like it!

xoxo

4-4.

okay. so i went to get my camera repaired. and repairs will cost me $375.

a new camera cost $499

somehow i know it makes more sense to get a brand new one. but i dont need a new one. i just need to get mine repaired. what to do what to do what to do.

anyhoo. on to other things.

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i love my job. conrad hotel in case you want to look for me :) 

went to malaysia for a couple of days. 

the picture before the camera suffered its downfall. lol

had a video call with traey today. i would post a snippet video but i'm too lazy to edit. 

and traey's mommy saw me and was like "aww. she's cute!"

i dont want cute - ugly but adorable, no?

question - do i look pritty with him?? :P

its just some random screen shot i could find.

dont ask me what he's doing. i'm lost as well.

and i still love him :)

to end the short updates,

heh. what? its my blog. i can post my c.hoe shots :)

¡Hola!

xoxo

still loving you. i wonder why

Waiting.

oh my lord. i dropped my camera and so noo more pictures. at least for the time being.
its getting repaired.
what if it was karma.
anyhoo, just a quick up date i guess.
i'm spending a couple of days with my sister. so i'm not in town :)
met her friends. pretty chill humans.

xoxo
wish me luck for tomorrow!

Just Give It Time

yesterday was awesomee.

a girls' day out, chillin at far east. and i bought some stuff for work.

and the rest of the night can be said in one word.

Cuscaden :)

a jug for 10 bucks; massive sale

thats Ben.

charlie smiling :)

...Farhan. i think he's cute :D no?

Ben and Nicky.

CLASSIC.

utt was totally wasted. altho he begs to differ at some point.

this is what wasted looks like. lool

xoxo

how long can i keep this up?