yupp..

Last week has been so pumped up with all sorts of emotions. Good and bad. Like i told you, KOH picks on my hair. Right.. and i totally caught her in the act. I followed Sheena to go look for her one day and the first thing that she said to me was, "Sarah~! Your hair ah.." and like there was nothing wrong with it. So i was like, "What? It's all pinned back." and she kinda stuttered after.. haha!! Mom has finally let me back on the ice.. but i have to start my whole skating course again. This time i have two friends that are joining me. So the price is cheaper. That's why she allows. But i feel it's pretty wasteful but well, i rather be on the ice than not at all. It's my life to skate.. well, kinda.

Know what it feels like being rejected? This is the bad thing that happened to me this week. And i'm still a grouch over it. So i was being lame and asked this guy, Matt*, a random question in a very sarcastic manner. And it was sent through a short message (SMS). So you know, you can figure what my tone would be like. We were kinda talking about this girl called Amelia. That she has grown to be really pretty. And well, i ask him, "Do you find me pretty~?" like i was being sarcastic!! dumbfuck. And well, the answer was no. i could feel like my heart slowing down and shattering into many screwed up pieces. The rejection that i felt was something that was hard to overcome. It's like my world was torn apart.. and when we carried on with this topic, i suddenly realise something which was really true.
If it doesn't work out between us, all the 6 years of great friendship will go to waste. 6 GREAT YEARS! Yupp.. a sure waste, it will be.. so i think i'm better off being his good friend than just a memory of a past.

I need a new pair of figure skates. Gonna start classes in march!! can't wait... the inter-school competition will not be long after and hopefully, Vivian and Jess would be skilled up by then. Then we shall join the competition together as a group. I really hope that they'll be friends instead of competition. I'm so sick of having to prove myself to competitors. Showing them that I AM better than them. You see it in the scores.. what else is there i need to prove? HAHAHA!! =P

Wonder how Barak's doing. He's out of the country and it has never been so long since i last chatted with him. I miss the corny jokes and funny stuff. I hope he's alright.. God's with him. Yeah. He should be..

Anyway, i wish ya'll a blessed week ahead.

* His name isnt Matt. duh.