you want the truth, so here it is.

i don't get girls.

i know that's something really ironic for me to be saying but i really don't. i mean, all the sudden change in attitude.. and it's the nasty kind. like from happy to angry. it's scary.. and it's hard to react to it.
so today in school, this happened. from the time school started, i get all these weird vibes from the girls.. and when i ask one girl a question, she gives me a look that just freaked me out. it's like she was pissed. but there was really no reason to be.
and the whole day, it's just that pissed look on her face..
you don't know what she's thinking about.. i bet i got backstabbed. i don't know... i don't care.

you want the truth, renu? Can you handle it?
if you're pissed at something, you don't have to be a bitch about it.. like just say something luh. than give me that look the whole bloody day. it ticks me off.
you make it seems as though i did something against you.. which i didn't. you guys left me in the class alone to read my TIMES magazine.. and you guys went off to find king kong. and obviously it's a bit saddening to be invisible. try being in my shoes, smart ass...

can you believe it? the whole day, i was invisible to these people.. it was weird. just imagine you were invisible to your friends.. then, you start to realise that they don't give a shit either....... so you tell yourself, "why should i care then?"
you see the face and the glare from them and it bugs you even more.. you can't stand it.. so you ignore them too... and then they ignore you more.. but you can't ignore them any more because you're already ignoring them.. wtf.

and don't hate people for nothing and call them short. that's nasty.. [when i call people "short", it's usually a joke. but this girl was serious when she said it. that's sick.]

i told you i don't lie, renu.....
don't take it hard.. i'm just saying..
hate me for who i am.. not for who i'm not.