%$#@!

i just hate everything right now.

like i just want to fuckin kill anything or anyone i see. just like slice them all into bit and pieces and go on a rampage.

fuck this world. i dont give a shit. everything is just crap and i dont want it.

if only life were how you wanted to live it. with nobody stopping you. no limitations. no boundaries.

why should i live on knowing the world is going to end anyway.

the issue about me is that. if you know me, you'd know i have this "problem" managing my anger. i'm a cutter. so after the last incident, i promised people that i wouldnt do it again. and i havent but i've been keeping all my anger and frustrations in and i've got no ways to let them out. so you can imagine the torment i'm going thru. to the point where i'm on the verge of pulling my hair out. i cant take this anymore.

whats worse is that i'm grounded and i hate being at home.

i NEED to get out.

runaway if i will.

i need a break. but then again so does everyone. but i'm not everyone see. why should i suffer just cause everyone is suffering too. call me selfish. but its our choices that brings sufferings or happiness.

forget it.

where's my ticket to a better place?