Wednesday, October 19, 2005

picture..

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my sis and people of the world..

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Jammers..

Right..

So i'm like sitting here, waiting for something to happen.
Feeling cold, scared and numb.
Wonder what it's going to be like,
sitting down here like an empty appartment.
I can hear my heart thumping in my ears.
Oh Lord, am i shedding a tear?
Why does it feel like shit, when in reality,
looking at the circumstances, it's actually quite a bliss.
What is this thing that i'm feeling?
It's like something i've felt once in my life before.
Man.. now i'm stuck in this stupid situation.
and to tell you the truth, i hardly feel liberated.
if it was in church, i'd be glad.
I'll feel comfy, like in my own bed.
There aint nothing to be satisfied about.
besides that i'm all tired out..

Dundee Street..

Along the roads of Dundee Street,
Lives a nice old lady who makes wonderful spagetti,
And sews many great dresses.
she has 5 cats that keep her company,
And plays this game called 'many wild guesses'.

Her good friend is mexican,
And she is just as fun.
Her name is Margot and she keeps cats too.
They go out for tea and buns,
starring into each others eyes of blue.
It's way cool.

So i get to visit them every now and then.
Oh.. How i miss them so.
It's going to be winter the next time i see them.
My grandmother and her good friend.

whatever..

How dare you demoralise me?
crushing all my hopes and dreams.
Telling me it's a waste of time,
how mean can you be?

I pray and weep.
Hoping for a miracle to happen.
My faith is strong, My heart is pure.
Oh Lord, let me not be weakened.

This has been my life long dream,
Ever since i was a kid.
In one second, it was crushed
By that woman you gave to me.

Aren't mothers suppose to be supportive,
Giving all the support they can give?
I'd rather forget about my dream,
because you gave her to me.

Tuesday, October 18, 2005

Thursday, September 29, 2005

Fun.. i was being stupid.

What is it all about?
Fun, is it the only one?
That helps me cope,
keeps me afloat?

Fun.
I love it when it involves guns.
Shooting people down,
making them run.

The opposite of fun,
is nuf.
You think you're so tough?
Well, it kinda makes me barf.

What have you got that i don't?
Besides that i'm fun and you're not?
Doing what you're told.
I bet you were being bought.

Yes. How fun it is.
To make people pissed.
Making lame remarks
and getting shot down be punks.

My church.. just so you know, Alive Community Church.

I only stepped in when i was 12.
and i felt really welcomed.
They made me seem important
and i felt the hearts warming.

My sister was there with me too.
That made me feel something completely new.
For a moment, it was too much.
I thought it wouldn't last.

Their praise turned me inside out.
Their worship turned me outside in.
i soon felt that i was spinning round
until i could not feel a single thing.
It soon came to an end.
I thought i could no longer feel God's presence again.

Along came Yvonne.
She helped me see
that problems didn't matter
when God had all the power
to blow my troubles away.
Boy, did i feel better!

What an awesome experience.
It'll forever be entrenched to my heart.
And I'll never forget this church
which helped me realise my love for Thee.

The one and only, ACC!

Wednesday, September 28, 2005

friends.. uh huh..

Some friends are gross,
some are weird.
But those that i despise
are the ones who jeer.

The worst of the lot would be --------a [ just pronounce the 'a' ]
for she is such a dweeb,
i can't even give way.
Would she ever stop for a minute to think that,
that ain't right?
To be fussing around all day and night?

If you think I'm being mean,
just stop, look and see.
If you know me,
then you'll know I'm really patient.
And now, i can't even stand this person!

Because of this reason,
my mood's displeasin' .
But once I'm older,
I'll get over.
While Miss Nasty is getting even colder.

No basic manners or principles.
Her poor parents.
They must feel do discouraged.
Cheer up, it's okay.
Leave her be.
Wait, you'll see.
She'll be dealt with ungentlely.
Not by me but by a stranger that will never flee.

Herself.

Tuesday, September 27, 2005

My uttmost cry [Prayer]

Oh Lord,
I plead that you hear my cry.
To see what my heart desire.
I cannot handle the situation.
I'm bounded by my own limitations.
There ain't no other reason.
I wanna be in thy presence.

I need you more than ever now.
Even more than i did before.
The truth be told,
i rather skip town or even fall.
It's too much to take!
Worse than some blasting debate.
I would hide or run away,
but you've made me realised that,
that ain't the way.
I look up to the sky,
the sun shining in my eyes,
and i seriously wonder why.

How can someone be so judgmental
against the will of God?
Judging the house of the Lord.
Isn't that a major flaw?
Why didn't i stand up to defend your name?
It's now not mine to gain.

Forever trying to find the answer.
But with her pulling me even lower,
I feel like dirt under the earth,
stuck in a black universe.
Who can I turn to, besides you?
What else can I do?

I want her to disappear from all i can see,
but i know that is not possible.
I need time to be alone.
Away from whatever that's here.
Take me away! Far away!
So i can be close to you all day.

My time ain't up yet,
but i feel that it is.
Why is it so hard to live?
Life is a gift from you.
But i guess it's mine to choose.
Whether to be true or to be screwed.

Loving ain't easy and you know it!
My life is all so cheezy and i'm getting dizzy.
Just to be me, it's all the same.
Flying high, being chained.
How ironic it is.
Sarah, the person always blamed.

Sunday, September 25, 2005

Love..

Love ain't easy, love's real tough.
Love's so hard, it makes me barf.
5 was number, now it's 4.
and for that, i thank the Lord!

It's the B's and the J's.
Who am i to them?
It's kinda hard to say.
Whether or not I'll be with Mr right,
it up to those who stays.

My billboard lives!
Unless 3 names are strike off,
I shall be amidst.
How am i suppose to think
when something i can't control
is making me bleed?

Oh.. the pain and agony!
My love for you would be true.
If you're the one,
please say, “ I do.”
Forgetting the past and remembering the new,
making up for times which were screwd.

The last 4 names,
I shan't reveal.
For i shall wait till time is still,
wishing that I'll be with you.
The choice ain't mine to choose
but the Lord's to deal.


*product of Sarah.*

Thursday, September 15, 2005

for audrey and jo..

gee.. today, i kinda gave a very big wrong impression to my two friends, audrey and jo. i shared with them the dream i had last night and gave them a major wrong impression that isnt very good.
i dreamt that i went to the polo shop and saw this polo tee that cost $138. and i only had $131. so it wasnt enough and so i had to go back and get the tee another day.
and then i told Aud and Jo that i always have enough money with me. !!!! but like that because i like finding out the prices 1st.. i aint a extravegent freak.. ahhh!!! sorie ya'll.. gave you a money spending freak sarah impression =X
i suddenly thought of it and like.. i dont want you guys to feel that i'm some freak, from another planet, who likes money for the wrong reasons.. kay'?

once you read this, please tag!!! haha.. so i know.

thankew..

anyway, nothing much happened today..

Thursday, September 08, 2005

sweet.

today was pretty fun. we went to watch a movie, the cave. my goodness.. it scared the day out of me.. yeah.. JJ, YZ, Jon[not sure why he suddenly came, but i can infer], DY, KaiL and I.. it was wayy fun.. i think.
the show creeped me and KaiL out and like the guys have the cheek to show us their smug looking face.. we were screeaming during the show.. yeah.. it was freaky.
and like i promised JJ i'll talk to him.. but like Jon and YZ were talking to him, so i couldnt really talk.. yeah.. i'm sorie. we'll go out again and i shall talk to you kay'?
sorie!!
so like i'm gonna be so dead.. havent touched my term-break homework. whoa! i'm gonna be kill..
and cheryl has cramped my mind with the "aye'. you know, Brother Bear..
haha..
it's so cute..
and like on monday, we gotta wear the stupid ties? how stupid is that??? like a freaking blue tie, with a background of white.
YUCK!!!
anyway, i shall be going now..

* i'm still waiting for your birthday to come. cant wait..

Saturday, August 27, 2005

how would you feel?

hectic week i suppose.. got all my results back for the common tests.. and realised how insensitive people can be. like when they get higher marks than you do, they cry right in front of you .. makes you feel like jumping off the tallest building right? my goodness. like give me a break.. you already passed your overall!! i didnt! dont bitch around in front of me. i dont take it well. and it's like some of my other friends are feeling that some people can be realli insensitive.. so i dont alone! thankew!! you know, i realli hope insensitive people would realise how much hurt they have caused to people. i not being judgemental or whatsoever but i realli think they outta know what's it like when people are insensitive towards you. i can tell you now, insensitive people, you're gonna hate the shit out of it! you will not like it one bit! so quit being insensitive before i treat you like dust underneath my foot. and dont even think of apologizing then.. cause it WILL BE OVER!!!!!!

my dad's back for 5 days.. yay!

Thursday, August 25, 2005

Our storiee!! you gotta read this..

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GroupWork
Information: The " I " is a guy and please dont apply real commom sense into the story

Sheena
Joanne
Sarah
Cheryl
Weiyi
Audrey
Yi ting 
 
 
I looked at the bright full moon. Stars glittered at the pitch black sky. I could not even see my hands in front of me! Suddenly, the nighbours' cat let out an excruciating screech. I dashed out of the house wondering what on earth had happened. I saw a bloody carcas lying on the pavement. Suddenly i had the urge to sniff the carcas. I knelt on the stone hard ground as i debated in my mind whether to try it. Curiosity overcomed me as i bent down, nose heaving the pavement. Then i knew he had come. Out of the blue, the cat's eyes popped out of the head and bounced off ! Extremely shocked, I fell backwards, landing on something that felt very meaty. I reached down to grab what had made my landing soft, hoping it was not another organ of the cat. I realised i was holding a luminous green substance in my hand and shrieked. I tried to flick it off, but to no avail. Instantly, something grabbed my other hand and I screamed into the cold quiet night. My heart pumbing vigorously, i turned around to face a hooded figure standing silently in the shadows. It was a dementor! He was the prettiest man i have ever seen. (Ahaha XD) I stepped backwards hastily, frightened by the darkness that surrounded the dementor, the dead cat and me. I felt the coldness seeping into my skin; it was draining every single drop of happiness from my tainted soul. The world started to swirl around me and a storm began to brew. A hurricane formed and I got sucked up by it, along with the dementor and nothing else. The world stopped and instantly my butt kissed the stoned floor. Sitting there, stunned, I hastily got to my feet the moment reality came back to me, only to find that the world was starting to freeze! Baby mammoths started to run towards me, licking my pale face. (It disappeared later in the story XD) I scanned around the area, realising my watch wasn't ticking. Suddenly the dementor appeared out of no where and started to walk towards me. He broke the ice and said "I am your father brother soul-mate, come to the dark side. And together, we shall rule the world!" I shivered at the thought of it."
" Silver or gold have i none. But such as i have, i give unto thee. In the name of my father, I command you to be free!" I watched him struggle to save his soul from escaping his flesh but it was useless.
[Yaoi starts from here] "Then before i die, I have but one wish," using the force, he pulled me to his side and began to kiss me.
The kiss felt bitter sweet.It seemed like my existence was meant for this. The passion was burning my senses, I stared into his dark blue eyes and at that moment, our wolrds collided.
We sank deeper into out kiss, oblivous to the world around us, nothing else mattered. I felt as a hole in me was filled and for the first time in my life, i was complete.Our lips parted slowly and he whispered in my ear,
"After I die, eat me, suck my bones dry and then I can become a part of you."  He fell into my arms, motionless. I leaned over and sank my canines into his neck, sucking his oh-so-sweet (-.-)blood. For once, I felt life gushing through my veins. My tears were running dry, and time was still. I carried his cold, empty body to the edge of the cliffs. Holding him tightly in my arms, I plunged off the cliff. Time was beginning it's journey once again.
"I love you." T_T

Wednesday, August 24, 2005

pictures.. fun...

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My name.. cool eh?

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My church drums which were previously used.. now, they're RED!!

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BOO-YEAH! the orange guitar!! transparent too.. sweet eh? haha..

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that's right! i am sticking my tongue at you!! *saliva splatters*

BYEE YA'LL!!

Sunday, July 24, 2005

harsh..

my life's all fucked up and i'e got a mom who will never shut up... sounds harsh yeah? but it like so utterly true... so i've prayed that God relieve me from this painful suffering.. and i'm still waiting for a miracle.. yeah.. so wait with me. haha.. see ya\

Saturday, July 09, 2005

wow..

it has been a very long time since i blogged... oh wells..
my dad gave me an ipod.. and he left for indonesia.. he's gonna work there for like 2 years or something...
and when he left, i didnt feel like doing anything... even going for bible study... i wanted to skip it.. but in the end i told myself that 'dad would tell me to commit..' so i went for bs..
it just feels realli weird without my dad...

Wednesday, June 15, 2005

this my heart's prayer to you...

oh Lord!! why izzit always that i screw up whenever i think of you know what... i mean... how can this be so? i wanna concentrate on you right now.. you know that... help me get over myself.. Lord, you help me along... amen.

right... you know what? i'm screwed~! haha... actually, i'm not.. coz God's helping me along...

*plane*

Friday, June 10, 2005

why.. it's already over... cant wait for the next!

SOS is over.. the teaching was really great.. dont worry vonz.. i made notes, with you in mind.. haha.. once you come back, i'll show it to you..
actually, something personal happened and i aint gonna share it on my blog.. far to personal.. only my best friend will get to know of it.. sorie..
anyway... i didnt go to the learning lab today so i'll be going to jo's class on monday. actually they said that i'm not suppose to go to her class coz that isn't my make up class day but i beg and i pleaded and finally, they were willing to make an exception this once... yeah! haha... and coz it's the holidays.. she said that this was my holiday present or something.. haha.. oh wells.. at least i'm able to go to Jo's class and not some boring make up class with happens on tuesdays.. BORING!!!

why.. it's already over... cant wait for the next!

SOS is over.. the teaching was really great.. dont worry vonz.. i made notes, with you in mind.. haha.. once you come back, i'll show it to you..
actually, something personal happened and i aint gonna share it on my blog.. far to personal.. only my best friend will get to know of it.. sorie..
anyway... i didnt go to the learning lab yesterday so i'll be going to jo's class on monday. actually they said that i'm not suppose to go to her class coz that isn't my make up class day but i beg and i pleaded and finally, they were willing to make an exception this once... yeah! haha... and coz it's the holidays.. she said that this was my holiday present or something.. haha.. oh wells.. at least i'm able to go to Jo's class and not some boring make up class with happens on tuesdays.. BORING!!!