Shine On

i'm supposed to be sleeeping 'cause i'm waking up at 4 to continue.. well, start.. studying for my paper which is at 1430 - thank the good Lord.

so here are the pictures :]

this is the wonderful lobby of Sunway Lagoon

where the sweet life begins.
...the lounge. [its not too bad]
oh look! snowflakes :Dthey have flat screen teles.. how pretty.
buttons in the lift :)

which brings us down to...

smoked salmon for breakfast?

Pastries :] its pretty obvious which is my favorite

nice array of greeeeeeeens... NOT.

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moving onto the looo. you only know how truly great the place is by the quality of.. heh. yeh.

more buttons but from a different side of the hotel

going down to the carpark :)
paintings that are displayed on the way to the carpark______________________________________________________

and what is the journey without our trusty steed. obviously its photoshopped to look pretty. pops wouldnt ever drive a car that hot. LOL
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Visit Sunway Lagoon today! truly the holiday experience [even tho i didnt experience it...much.]

good things dont come cheap

xoxo

A Little Piece of Heaven

#1: look at the date of my last entry. nothing more needs to be said.

i'm not going to bore you with why i decided to blog again. it's clearly obvious that i found nothing better to do with my time. and the thing is, its exam week for me and i'm NOT STUDYING.

its not that i dont want to but i dont know. nothing wants to get in and i'm just not in the mood.

so anyway, i just got back from malaysia. my sister, Hannah, went there to study at International Medical University or also known as IMU. she'll be there for 2 years. and no, i didnt cry.. yet.

Malaysia was pretty cool but the traveling was horrendous. like the roads are soo utterly confusing. if you're going to build roads, its to make going about more efficient and convenient. i'm not criticizing the country but i havent gotten the slightest clue how Hannah's going to travel around. GOOD LUCK POKEY.

however, the hotel that i stayed at was amazing. tho i've been there before, i dont remember it being as nice as it is now. its Sunway Lagoon in case you were wondering. i will post up pictures soon.

Another thing, i need a new camera. Hannah took the one we shared but who cares?! i always wanted my own. so now i'll get it. :] yay me!

i wished people used more than 3% of their brains. i could use the extra capacity.

xoxo

good news?

MY PICTURE BLOG'S UPDATED..NOT MUCH BUT IT'S SOMETHING.. =)

you want the truth, so here it is.

i don't get girls.

i know that's something really ironic for me to be saying but i really don't. i mean, all the sudden change in attitude.. and it's the nasty kind. like from happy to angry. it's scary.. and it's hard to react to it.
so today in school, this happened. from the time school started, i get all these weird vibes from the girls.. and when i ask one girl a question, she gives me a look that just freaked me out. it's like she was pissed. but there was really no reason to be.
and the whole day, it's just that pissed look on her face..
you don't know what she's thinking about.. i bet i got backstabbed. i don't know... i don't care.

you want the truth, renu? Can you handle it?
if you're pissed at something, you don't have to be a bitch about it.. like just say something luh. than give me that look the whole bloody day. it ticks me off.
you make it seems as though i did something against you.. which i didn't. you guys left me in the class alone to read my TIMES magazine.. and you guys went off to find king kong. and obviously it's a bit saddening to be invisible. try being in my shoes, smart ass...

can you believe it? the whole day, i was invisible to these people.. it was weird. just imagine you were invisible to your friends.. then, you start to realise that they don't give a shit either....... so you tell yourself, "why should i care then?"
you see the face and the glare from them and it bugs you even more.. you can't stand it.. so you ignore them too... and then they ignore you more.. but you can't ignore them any more because you're already ignoring them.. wtf.

and don't hate people for nothing and call them short. that's nasty.. [when i call people "short", it's usually a joke. but this girl was serious when she said it. that's sick.]

i told you i don't lie, renu.....
don't take it hard.. i'm just saying..
hate me for who i am.. not for who i'm not.

haha.. =)

today, i went for another flag day.. and it wasn't very productive. half the money in my bag was donated by.. ME! haha! anyway, renu and i went to marina square in the morning for breakfast and then i bought me a new spankin diary.. =) i spent $32.. whee!
next, we went to bugis to find the skinny fart. heh. and we slacked there.. while yule and broderick were CIPgoodies. haha.. yupyup.. surprising, i know.
then i went up.. and the skinny fart followed me and renu.. and we went to get my mom her early birthday present.. CHANEL ROUGE ALLURE, $42.. it was totally awesome.. =)
this flag has been pretty fun.. actually, really fun. ;) better than the last? hmm.. i dont know. they're both fun in their own ways..

i'll end off saying, "renu does not hate eggy. lots of love to go around!"

life sucks. so what?

when life gives you lemons, DANCE! heh.. i'm losing my mind.
anyhoo, we won the semi-final debate! OH MY LORD! and we were against st patricks and there was this pretty cute guy.
he's called dickson. heh. oh well. whatever.. i dont know him anyway.. so no point thinking about anything associated with that boy. i remain loyal to whoever..
i think this whole world is so full of shit. especially the people around me. they try to make up for what they did to me by being extra nice but actually, there are still multiple things that are hidden. and they will try not reveal it. even if it makes them tell a tall tale.. they'll still do it..
no point selling their soul to the underworld. they'll just reject it like everyone else..
BEWARE!

i just wanna hurt someone so badly.

damn damn damn damn. i wanna murder someone or hurt them so bad that they'll die. sacrifice them to satan.. but that's not right. haha..
slice them up, take their soul and sell it to the underworld..

hello mollies.

hello Georgia molly, molly C and molly rae.. i hate my drama juniors. they are a bunch of crap. they suck and the fatty sucks even more.
i love the mollies. i would write a song about the mollies. but i cant sing and write at the same time. i just finished watching emo elmo on you tube. it's so emo-ish. go to youtube. and search for "tickle me emo".. watch it.. it's very emo.... EMO.
there you go.
love you.

thanks.

thanks for taking the one thing that meant the world to me.
thanks for taking him away for your own pleasure.
thanks for making me feel like fuck right now.
thanks for showing me your hoochie self.
thanks for taking pleasure in my misery.
thanks for judging me.
thank you for every thing, motherfucker.
btw, in case some of you mistake "motherfucker" as me calling my mother a fucker, it's not. fuck. "motherfucker" refers to............ fuck. you figure it out. please make sure you got the correct message and not some fucked up crap shit message that you assume is true. if you did, fuck you.

what am i gonna do with this?

well, i feel a lil' disappointed because i think my wanted valentine rejected me..wdh.. well, i've got many options but i wanted that one. guess i'll have to settle for someone that beneath me. damn. i'm pretty bummed out.. i mean, i could have sworn that he'll say yes or okay.. but i think it was a "no". he didnt say a direct no.. but i think you gotta read between the lines. if you be a "yes" too.. ya never know.. haha!
well, today was the 1st day of school. nothing much happened. Jerry's hair grew back, almost to normal. while his weird fried, CW, shaved it off.. -.- what irony..
well, my chem teacher got transferred to another school. so my chem teacher now is- miss wassan. =\ help.. but she might be a good teacher.. i'm not sure. will see tomorrow. i've got chem class..
today, i had to sit for an entrance test for Additional math. but really, i dont see the point in taking that test. i'm NOT gonna drop that subject or any subject at that matter.
oh, and i walked pass like 3 table just to go say "hi" to theodore.. haha. he's so TAN! and TALL! wow... but i'm not surprised. it has always been like that..

what did the R.E.C.S do today?
well, we planned our sweet sixteen party which will be held at the end of the year. i will not go into much detail as for now. but invitations will be sent out soon enough. we want it to be really exclusive. so the attire is FORMAL! wee.. nice.
Charr had to dye her hair back. she's pretty smart though. haha.. she dyed it Blue-Black. so when it's in the sun, it'll look blue. i havent seen it turn blue yet. but i'll let you know once i do.

that's all for now.. i need to chat with some IMPORTANT people in my life.. xD

lots of love,
Ephesians Tan Sarah.

i could actually be the luckiest girl on earth.

I've always wanted a younger brother.. and now, i DO have a younger bro.
and it's not what you might think. some random guy that I've known not to long ago?
haha.. yeah riiiiiight. FAR FROM IT. on the contrary, i've known him almost all my life. well actually, ALL MY LIFE! better believe it. =D we recently discovered the relationship that we once had before and realised that our friendship is more than what we thought it was. according to my mom, we used to spent weekends at his place. and that his grandmother made AWESOME food! delicious stuff.. but don't ask me about that. i wouldn't have remembered.
Anyway, the relationship that we had with him was really no different from like cousins and siblings. =P and it works fine because we have the same surname.. beat that.
and you know losers always put the "god-" in front.. like "OHhh, ThaT iSh Mii gOd-BrotHerR woRrhxxxx"
WAHAHAHHAHHHHAAHAHAHAHAHA!! i'm bloody mean...
and even so, those kind of "god-brothers/sisters" never actually last.. it's so weird and at one time, you can have like, what, 10?! OH, GET REAL!!
anyhoo, my bro and i, there's no "awkward-cy" there because i think the past covered us. i mean, it's really amazing.. i've got a brother. not a brother-in-law or GOD-brother -.- but a BROTHER FROM ANOTHER MOTHER.. =P
our momma's are tight.. so our relationship will never die unless our moms suddenly hate each other or something [ never gonna happen, stop wishing ]..
i went out with JJ and friends yesterday. it was fun. really enjoyed it.. well, not really, really. but it was fun. we didnt even do anything after the movie. we watched deja vu.. it was REALLY weird.. kept going back and forth. deja vu only happened at the end of the show.
now's the season finale of Ghost Whisperer.

-later.

it's close to the worse day of my life

my baby Oatty died. well, he's not actually a baby. more like a grandpops. haha.. he's old and probably it was the time to go. he was 6, going on to 7, years. i don't want to tell you the whole story because i'll cry again. like the other day, i was gonna tell my friend the whole story and i was on the verge of crying again. so i didn't continue the story and i just stopped it halfway, carrying onto other things.
but i'm really and absolutely grateful to him for making me feel more satisfied at the moment in time. but after that, my day begun to hang low, again.
as for now, i'm doing better. i still see the cage and i tell myself," I could have stopped it."
somehow, i knew he was gonna die that day. don't ask me how. i just did. and worst of all, i did nothing to stop it. Or maybe it could not be stopped. i don't know.
and after oatty died, i just felt like the whole world was just against me. no one knew how i was feeling. it was messed up. but i had to get back up onto my feet and live on. so i concentrated on my skating. i landed my flip, well slightly. =P and PERFECTED my 3-turn.. yay me!

daddy's coming home today. my buddy's gonna thrash him at pool. haha.. my old man cant wait to play against my friend. haha.. it'll definitely be interesting. so i'll see how it goes and let ya'll know.
keep it real.

i love this. OUR GREATEST FEAR

Our greatest fear is not that we are inadequate,
but that we are powerful beyond measure.
It is our light, not our darkness, that frightens us.
We ask ourselves,
Who am I to be brilliant,
gorgeous, handsome, talented and fabulous?
Actually, who are you not to be?
...
Your playing small does not serve the world.
There is nothing enlightened about shrinking
so that other people won't feel insecure around you.
We were born to make manifest the glory of God within us.
It is not just in some; it is in everyone.
And, as we let our own light shine, we consciously
give other people permission to do the same.
As we are liberated from our fear,
our presence automatically liberates others.

- Marianne Williamson in A Return to Love

i knew it would be interesting.

HAHA.. today i went out with my buddies from primary school. i had a helluva time with them.. i dont wanna elaborate much because some things are really personal. and i dont wish to share it with the world.
anyhoo, we went to watch the grudge 2. wen's fancy idea. it was SOOOOO... not scary.
please, it was so hilarious that i almost pee-ed in my pants.. [kiddin']
but seriously, i wasnt scared one bit. you should watch it if you wanna kill time or just catch a sucky horror flick. it'll knock the shit out your butt!
it was great.
that's all i'm gonna tell you about. the rest of the stuff that happened cannot be posted. haha.. people will start kicking my ass..
so to save me from the misery, i shall not write about it.
it stays in my noggin'.

keep it real.

leave me alone

i have never felt more defeated in my life.
first this morning, B.lim [the disipline mistress], was standing at the area where all the student walk in from. she was doing uniform check up. and of all the days, she caught my for wearing the wrong coloured bra. and she was all like, " give me 3 good reasons why i should let you in?"
here are my 3 reasons! 1st, you dont own the school. 2nd, i bet you're like wearing a black, strapless bra. and 3rd, why are you looking at my boobs?! =\ haha..
Well anyway, so she asked me to call my mom to bring me the right coloured bra. and i said, " i'm sorry but that is not possible."
you see, i just patched things back with my mom. i would go to the extend of killing myself to mantain the peace with her. so i refused to call my mom and i told B.lim that it's either she let me go or just send me home and i will change.
oh, and by the way, i was already running late for my prep for debate.
so whatever, B.lim then told me, "don't quarell with me just because you're a debator." haha.. hey, i wasn't quarelling with her.
so she called my mom and told her that i had to go home.. blah blah blah. all the nonsense.
i went back. and on my way out, YZ was puzzled why i was leaving school so soon when i arrived only a couple of minutes ago. and i told him the story.

took a cab home. changed. took a cab back. swift and quick. spent 15 bucks on cab in less than an hour, or half an hour even.

so i got back to school. had to report to B.lim and went to collect my blazer. i went up to the leadership room where we were doing our last minute preparations. then we left at 0945hours.
We took another cab down to SIM(Singapore Institute of Management). we waited for your turn to go for our auditions for the television competition called "The Arena". Jasmine, Renu and I were really stressed so we went off to the girls' room to have some fun. we play a fool among the mirrors. =) it was funny.
anyway, we went to do our auditions and oh boy, we pretty much screwed..
well, it's the truth. we didnt make it.
All of us felt really defeated and well, we all turned silent.

whatever man. it's over anyhow.
my team and i, we're gonna thrash the julia gabriels!

the 411

well, let's see.. where do i start?
1st, my grades. it's bad. really bad.. i know you might hear many people saying this but when i say it, you really have no idea how bad my grades are. dont even try comparing my grades to your 'bad' grades.. seriously. i'm not going to share with you what they are because it's really kinda embarrassing. and it makes me even more depressed.
so MOVING ON!
2nd, there's this pink menace growing in our eco garden. the eco boys have been observing the menace since it was small. but it was so weird. during recess, we went to the eco pond for fun. and then we saw the pink thing. i remembered cheng wei posting something about this pink thing on his blog so we went to check it out.. then renu took something to hit it and the pink thing starting bleeding!! we stood there in shock. wth. it was really bleeding. it may not have been blood but it was definitely bleeding in it's own way. and when you hit it, there's this soft cracking sound.. so i went to try killing it. gah! i freaked out when i was hitting the poor thing but i continued the hit it.. well, just a couple of hit more.. and then i really freaked and stop.
we wanted to know what it was so we waited for the eco boys to come and explain things to us but they didnt show so we went up.
and when we went to check out SS paper, which i failed, we asked an eco boy[Well, jerry] what it was.. he said they were eggs! "eggs of some monster." so i told him to try cracking the eggs.. haha.. and i told him what he did.. =D
3rd, my mom is giving me a damn hard time. she makes it hard to live. i'm serious. she read my diary and now, she's using it against me.. i dont wanna talk much about this either.. it makes me kinda angry. and i cant cry anymore. out of tears..

so this is it.. my update.
keep it real.

this is going to be painful..

WHAT THE FUCK?!!!?
damn.. 'friends' can just be such fucking sly, cunning pieces of shit..
like what the hell man.. who knew that bitchface could do such a thing behind my back.. and to discover that such things has been going on behind my back..
FUCK YOU SHITFACE!!!!!! YOU FUCKING CHICKEN HEAD!
who knew such things could happened behind my back.. and to find it our from him.. i thank god that he's my close buddy..
thought you could get away? FUCK YOU!
i'm gonna make your life so miserable. you know i'm capable of such things..
i may look weaker than you on the outside but you know that i can do GREAT and PAINFUL things to people.. and get away with it..
WATCH IT, BITCHFACE!

just had to post something..

not much i guess.. but i did that! =D

screw it!

my friends were attacked by marsiling people the other day.
morons.. marsiling secondsary school people are fugly maggots man.. immature freaks..
i cant judge neighbourhood school just because marsiling sucks and it's a neighbourhood school.. because i came from Queenstown. and Queenstown is a totally awesome school. do i regret not staying there? well, no. i like it where i am.. just imagine, if i were still in Queenstown, no doubt my grades would be better but my attitude towards things could vary very differently. so i'm glad that i'm at a 'better' school. but the stress is just KILLER!
the final year papers start tomorrow.. it's gonna be really hectic for me. i'll be having really little sleep and i dont think i'll make it out alive.
although, i do plan to live after i die from the exams.
i totally do not understand macbeth.. such language should be banned.. haha..
the way they talk in those times is so hard to comprehend! seriously..
to study or not to study. that is the question.

how cool was it?

yesterday, a hell lot of things happened.
the day before yesterday, i had already planned to go out with my buds. but i did not dare to ask my mom. so i didnt.
the next morning, my mom walked over to my bedside to ask me what my plans were for the day. so i asked her, "can i go out with my friends after school?"
the same old questions come up. "with whom?", "where?", "when?".. so on..
so i said "JJ, Chien Ming and YZ."
and she was all like, "1 girl with 3 guys?!?"
and after that, i dont think you really wanna know what happened.
so obviously, the answer was no. and i was pissed.
anyhow, i still wanted to go out.
so i skipped school to complete some work at home.
my mom did want me home to study.. so i did.
still, i wanted to go out. so my sister helped me.
she told my mom that i'll only be out for 2 hours.. =D *hehe.. *
anyhoo, i went out to meet the fellas and we went to do stuff.
JJ desperately wanted to watch frostbite, "frostbiten", so did ming.
and it was rated. the only way was to sneak in.. and the fun starts here!
i took my sister's IC, because she's 17 and i can pull her face off. xD
so we bought the tickets and was very taken aback when the ticket dude didnt ask us for our ICs.. we thought we had done it.
However, i believe that guy knew that we would get screwed at the cinema entrance.
we went to the front of the cinema and stood outside, trying to plan our stategy.
at the moment, i saw this 2 girls having a really long talk with the entrance lady. and one of them was 'searching' her pockets. duh! and IC..
so after the long talk, they walked away.. and i went up to them to ask what happened. and i guessed it right. they were trying to sneak in. and they're 14!
so i went to tell the guys.. and what the heck. we just tried our luck. and obviously, we failed.. dang.
so we were given an opportunity to change the movie. so we changed it to "click", hoping that the theatre would be close to the on that was showing "frostbite". unfortunately, no.. it was far from it. try 2 levels far! click was on the 4th floor.. frostbite was on the 6th. we didnt wanna watch "click" no more. then i saw that the show, "devil wears prada" started at the same time as "frostbite". so i thought, "why not?"
so we changed the tickets again with an excuse that i bought the wrong tickets and the guys were unhappy with the show that i got. so the lady was nice and she allowed me to change 'em. and this time, it was all good.
"devil wears prada" was just a theater across from "frostbite". and so, with much convenience, we sneaked in. HAH!
frostbite wasnt a very nice show though.. haha. but i mean, the experience was greatly fun. we did funny stuff. like trying to find the door where people exit from once the movie is over and entering them. haha..
it's was all good..

what a beautiful day.
and what was even more amazing was that we were all wearing white shirts, with 3 quarter kinda pants. for the guys, it was like board shorts and for me, it was jeans folded into 3 quarter. the guys were all wearing adidas shoes.. and i just choose to wear my vans.. just imagine if i wore my adidas shoe.. how cool would that be man!
matching outfits without any planning whatsoever.. haha..

keep it real.

MAN! it was a shizzle!

the other day, i went to sheena's house and hacked her bar.
there was so many kinds of liquor, vodka.. so on..
i wasnt feeling very happy that day, so i thought i'd drink some.
i took the "absolute peach" and drank like one glass FULL of it.

DON'T EVER DO THAT~!!

in the beginning, it was all good. and soon, i begin to burn up in my belly.
anyhow, i drank the whole cup.
when i stood up to go get my phone, i was damn dizzy.
like blood was flowing away from my brain or something.
i think i was close to getting drunk. but hey, i dont drive.
it was super hard to drink after a while, but i still drank it anyhow.

DON'T DRINK THAT MUCH UNLESS YOU CAN TAKE IT.

the feeling that i got was kinda off the hook.
not that i'm promoting it..
BUT... yeah. it was some experience.
vodka keeps you warm. drink it on the cold winter's day.
however singapore has no winter.
so dont drink it at all.

I DARE YOU TO TRY IT =P

"Absolute Peach" smells great!
though it doesnt taste as great. but still drinkable.
Drinking alcohol when you're pissed or upset,
it's worse than drinking it when you're happy.
people only think it'll sooth their pain but it actually makes it worse.
i told my friend about this experience.
and she said,
" after drinking alcohol, if you feel dizzy, you know it's bad for health."
cool. so i just took away a percentage of my life.

I COULD DIE..

uh huh.. right.

well, if you think i'm gonna post about what happened in school, i'm not. because i'm way over it. sheena helped me.
you see, what you sick bastards saw was my pants and not what you think it was. get it straight. Sheena told me that ultimately, what you guys saw was my pants and that's the fact. i dont care what people think it was. haha.. i've got my life to live.
about the tag, the poster has a sad life and guess it was jealous or something. i do not act 'ang moh'. BI.. it all comes down to jealousy. and Elaine, Charr and i tend not to be affected by dimwits. we're composed ladies, unlike the typical girls that you see here, in singapore.
anyway, i went to church today. and it was great! because we couldnt have much of MM practice, we had a prayer session. we prayed and 'interceed' for people. there was only 4 of us and the power of God just came. after, we had praise and worship. it was awesome man..
anyway, i'm outie..
have a nice day

i'm barely making it out alive..

yesterday was thee most terrible of the school year. mrs foo was totally bitching and i thought she was nice. guess she proved me wrong. mrs foo actually went to tell elaine, who was crying, not to cry in HER chemistry class.. she went, " Can you not cry in my chemistry lesson? cry after school." that was damn insensitive if you ask me.. during that lesson, she confiscated a music theory workbook [which i happened to be the one doing it], an ipod and a cellphone. fortunately, all was returned.
but the point of me writing this today is to show how insensitive teachers are.

ironically, i have to do this teachers' day performance. i'm really exhausted from it. but i've got to carry on, doing the best

i've kinda reached all limits.

oh look! my blog has been saved..i think my friend helped me..

anyway, i think i've kinda reached all my limits.. my patience is running dry and my emergy is also running low.. btw, i'm a really patient person. i can take all sorts of crap you push to my face.

Jerry's friends have been dimwitted boneheads these past few days. wait. correction. weeks.. and well, there's no doubt, i find it irritating but what the heck.. my parents brought me up well. so i didnt let them bother me.. let them be. they wanna be morons, that's their problem.
However, today.. i think they kinda crossed the line.

i was walking down the stairs and i saw mr yeo.. then cheng wei.. i continue walking because i know i'll just get the same crap that i always get anyway.. and i was right.. i heard lil' teases or something. Walked a couple more steps and then someone, who i think was cheng wei, shouted, "Jerry's Stead".. unless i heard wrongly or something. that was what it was..

what is your problem? you know at that very instant, i felt like dropping/throwing my bag onto the ground, walk up to cheng wei, hold him by the collar or something and yell in his damned face, "BEAT IT, DOOFUS!"
if only i were not so composed..

Weiyi was with me then, so i got her to turn around to see if Jerry was there.. Duhh. he was.. aint it obvious?

i feel it's so friggin' unfair because i cant talk to him and that's like probably the end of our friendship or something. unless one day, his friends decide to humble up or something. the only time i can say hi without having to affect him is when he's alone or with yew hung.. even so, after all that has happened, who knows what he could be thinking.. i'm not psychic.

is it me?

just because their own lives are bullcrap, it doesnt mean they gotta mess up mine and jerry's life, with such juvenile behaviour.

i had enough of pretty much everything.. friends, trouble amongst close friends and the common test is adding pressure.

I gotta learn how to deal...

yupp! i definitely love bball.

i went to the philips open today. it's a basketball match, in case you dont know. the pictures arent up yet. i have to find the time to post them. it's now the common test period but i took the time off to go watch the game with my sister and bro.. ^^.. it was fun. my cousin went too.. but i didnt know he went there until he text messaged me and asked me what i was doing there.. -_-"
well, the games were great. but i gotta say, in the beginning, when it was Singapore against Melbourne, the dumbass commentator was damn biased.. i wanted to punch him in the face or something. like wth was he trying to do? bias ass..
well, i'll talk more about it another time. but for now, i gotta go.. because it's getting late and i still need to do my homework. xD
well, see ya'll round.

what a day!

i was the MC for the national day ceremony in the morning and now, i have officially become a school MC. not sure if that's an honourable thing to become..

so i have a concern.. i signed myself up for an australia trip and i got selected without much consideration. that's what the teacher who put my name in said.. BUT! i'm helping my class with the teacher's day performance.. and we might be leaving on wednesday night. and teachers' day performance is on thursday! what am i gonna do?

anyway, told was pretty fun once school was over.. we went to beauty world to play lan.. haha.. man. that place is damn nice.. then after, i went to meet yao zhong take a bus to PS to hang out with JJ, ming and their friends.. anyway i wont go into detail.. too tired.. x]

have a nice day..

it was fun.

okay. so today went pretty well.. i'm quite glad that it was.
Elaine, Charr, Renu, I and some others went on to discuss our teachers' day thing. we are so totally gonna kick ass! haha.. well, basically because we're gonna be doing a musical..
and it's gonna be so great because we're gonna have live music and singing. well, duh.. originality.
so after CCA, cheryl and i went to watch the soccer match. i think it was 307 against 310.. the score? 6-1.. 310 won.. 307's defence was low, could be because jing xing wasnt the GK.. anyway, during the game, marcus asked me if i wanted to play soccer.. haha.
Marcus has been great. he actually encourages me to set up a co-ed soccer team. that means both boys and girls would play as one team. if nan hua were to have that, i'd be overjoyed. quit my current cca and join that, hoping to still keep my cca points. x] haha..
anyway, so Cheryl and i went to play soccer! why wouldnt we? SOCCER IS FUN!
and while playing, i realised that it's really tough to play with a skirt on. it gets in your way. seriously.. right then, i wanted to take my skirt off and just play in shorts. but it'll be unethical for a female of such to do something of that sort. the guys will gasps.. wouldnt you?
so me being the trippy sort, fell. xD the picture of my bruise is on my picture blog.. as usual..
haha.. oh well... btw, it was yao hui who made me fall. cheryl wanted to go trip him. haha! but since he apologised so many times, i thought i'd let it go.
it's my 1st time playing soccer with school people. it's not too bad. but i still would rather play with JJ and 'gang'.. because when i play with them, i dont feel like i'm out of place. than i'm of a weaker species because i'm a female. i just feel like one of them. which is great! it truly is..
and today i also found out yao zhong's brother's name once again. it's yu jian.. haha. and immature people always give me that crap. well, dont wanna get into that now.. it'll be really long and really painful.. just a lil.
so off i go.. it's dinner time and i gotta see who gets voted off singapore idol. i hope it's jonathan, though i dont think it will be. i find him gay.. like the hair and the eyes and his face.. haha..
right then.

Have a nice day ahead of you!

i would if i could...

okay.. where do i begin?
My dear sister, Hannah, went to sign herself up for this taiwan exchange programme. and the taiwan girl, Joanne, is here now, living with us! EWWW!!
there's one thing i dont like, and that is having some stranger living in my house! 1st, i'll have to comprimise to suit her needs and i think she thinks we're here to serve her.. GET REAL!
and she took my 10 bucks and didnt return it!
during lunch, i passed her 10 bucks to go get food for herself to eat.. and who knew she was gonna eat the same as i? [hmmmm.. what did sarah eat? =P]
so since i was kind enough to help her order, i was even 'kinder' to help her pay..
so she didnt use the 10 bucks right? and a normal person would at least return it to me.. but she didnt! and Sarah's NOT HAPPY!!! and when sarah's not happy, the person gets screwed!! but because i have to keep in mind that my sister will be living with her family in december, i better not do anything nasty. or my sister will be in trouble.. and i do not want that..
man.. i need help! i feel that she's a girl with a hidden agenda.. who knows what she may be planning up her sleeves? you can ask sheena.. i didnt welcome her even before she arrived.. i just dont appreciate strangers living and sleeping in my house, breathing my air!
i know i cant do anything so what should i be so furious? but hey, even the person who signed up for this crap doesnt like her... well, that figures.. she's not very likable.. and she talks with this english accent..
guess what, i've got an accent too.. ^^ hahaha.. a fading one..

never sign up for an exchange programme.
Quote of the day:
" If you cant go against them, Join them!"

* Joanne's picture will be posted on the picture blog. check it out!

keeping you up to speed.

Not long ago, Jerry started this Soccer petition- to make the school a more conducive place for soccer. I love soccer! so i helped him with out. After all, i'm a pretty nice person. xD And i went around asking for signatures. i would go up to one person and say, "Sign this petition. it's to make the school a more conducive place for soccer." Sometimes, i would be polite and add a "would you like to" in front to make it a choice. haha! but why do i care if they agree to it or not? i just want their signatures. =P

Anyway, on monday, i discovered something new and nice.. that Yew Hung and Cheng Wei are PRETTY nice people. i thought i hated them to the core once. because they were stupid and dumb. and last time, they use to call me "fats" [only the guys in my class'05 would call me that, i didnt mind] and obviously i was freakin' pissed. because i had no idea who they were. from then, i catergorized them as "dimwits without a friggin' life". and Cheng Wei was the ugly dude (sorry man..). sad eh?

so i told myself that if he EVER called me that again, i'll say, " yeah. i'm fat. but the good thing is that i can lose weight. However, you're ugly. you cant change that!" but i'm nice.. so i didnt say anything.

BUT NOW, i found out he's nice. well, they're nice.. not evil people like i once thought they were. so i'm glad.

See what soccer does for you? If soccer was a guy, i'd marry him ^_^!

Anyway, my dad's gonna come home this FRIDAY!! oh joy! like PHONE!, WATCH!, SWEAT SUIT!, SHOES!! hahahhahaha! everytime my dad come home, i get to buy stuff for ME!
what? i'm a snob.. and proud of it!

And today, Cheryl had a toad and frogs. she kept them in tupperwares. and Jerry has 2 frogs.. he named one "houxu". some name for a frog, huh.. i call it freddy nonetheless.. haha. you know the chocolate? freddy the chocolate frog? haha.. OH SWEET CHOCOLATE GOODNESS!

i slept during math again today! i'm starting to sleep in class again!! that's not good.. i wanna do well in school. because i have come to realise that all i gotta do is study while my parents have to do so much more! so it's actually subject as an easy task. Gahh.. C'mon Sarah!

so here you go, my post for today.
Support the Soccer Petition!

Quote for the day-
"You can be classy, but i'm class, itself!" ~Sarah

sarah's day

I wonder how Zinédine's doing.. I hope he’s feeling alright.. And over that head-butting incident. I mean, even if he regrets, he still has to move on, right?

Today was thee funniest day this whole school year! Elaine decided to wear Ek Neng's school uniform. Btw, Ek Neng's a guy... swell eh? She said it started from Weiyi wearing a big blouse... It was my blouse to be exact. Well, we had P.E in the morning, 1st period. So I changed into my P.E shirt... and not sure what I did, but sooner or later, my blouse landed up in Weiyi’s hands... I told her to wear it because it would be fun! She's pretty small-sized. So naturally, my uniform would be too big for her... but she wore it anyway. ^^
Now, I had no blouse to wear.. so I took hers.. haha.. Like I could actually fit into that smallish blouse! I could!! Wahahahahaaha!! But it was really tight.. Wore it for fun anyway.. not the whole day though. For a couple of seconds.. Then I decided to remain in my P.E shirt for the day..
Then later, I noticed Elaine wearing some guy's uniform, just the shirt. Found out it was Ek Neng's soon after...then later on, she decided that his pants would complete the whole outfit. So she wore it..
During Enrichment period, our math teacher was busy with other classes because she had to sub for a couple of teachers.. haha.. so we were free to do what we wanted.
Elaine, Charr, Weiyi and I decided to wonder about the school.. Someone then came up with this idea to sneak into the guys toilet because Elaine was now Eliam [just pick any male name that starts with an 'E']... haha.. so we got Lakshmi sneak out of class and check the toilet near his class, to ensure the absence of all boys.. Well, duh.. haha..
Anyway, after we were done at the guys lavatory, we headed back up.. then we looked down and saw Jerry and friends [ yew hung, cheng wei and so on..(Names spelt correctly?)] i'm not sure of it but I think they were trying to take a picture of Elaine or something. Because yew hung, or someone else, was holding up a phone, in the photo taking position, or so I thought.. after school, I went to ask Jerry of he saw Elaine.. Thought they were trying to grab a snapshot of Eliam [Elaine]. Apparently not.. because they didn’t see her, or at least Jerry didn’t.. and he was with them.. SoOoo, conclusion? They weren't taking a picture of Elaine.. what a dumb thing not to do.. but instead something else.. not sure what they were up to.. maybe they wanted a picture of Weiyi or something.. haha. Btw, if you guys want a picture of her, I can get it for you.. don’t have to go to such drastic measures..

Okay, so after school, I waited for YZ to end class.. I needed cash!! Haha.. I mean, he’s my good friend.. why wouldn’t I ask it from him? However, he was broke.. thanks.
Jess wanted to take a cab to causeway point.. we were all tired.. like we wouldn’t enjoy the comfort of a cab. So taking a cab means $$..
" Oh Geez! Hey.. Look. Jerry!" xD
Poor lil’ Jerry was once again tormented by his Chinese teacher, whom I’m really afraid off.. so he was sitting in his class.. all alone.. with no one to talk to. Luckily, Sarah flew to the rescue! [Play a rescue tune in your head. Please and thank you.]
It was then I asked him about the Elaine happening.. and when he says no, he shakes his head really dramatically! It was pretty funny.. haha.. wanted to ask him why was he shaking his head in such manner.. haha.. but I didn’t. Anyway, then after talking to him for a really short while.. I went out. Mind you, we’re still having cash problems..
So I had to pop back in and question if Jerry was rich.. “Any cash to spare?” He is rich!! Like 10 dollar notes everywhere.. Whoa.. Anyway, then he kindly lend it to me.. but I feel kinda bad.. Because I’m now not very sure that borrowing from him was the right thing to do.. Was he willing to lend it to me or did I supernaturally forced him to lend me that 10 bucks?
Well, anyhow.. sorry Jerry..

Moral of the day, always bring more [whatever] than you need!!!! Got it?

The Nanyang Funfair..

so here are some pictures my friends and i took at the funfair..
i dont absolutely appreciate funfairs, but because my friends were fun, they actually made the funfair, fun! haha..

Jess and Sheena


Sheena and I.. where art thou eyes?


Jess, I and Sheena


Me and Jess


the super 'zai' shot of the palm tree. or so hannah says..


whatcha lookin' at?


Other friends playing bball. =D


Sheena, Jess and I.


there you go! some pictures..
dont you just love pictures?
ENJOY! :]

yeah. i know.

how screwed is my blog?

Seriously screwed..

yupp.

yeah. i'm bored.. so..

here are some recent taken picture for you to gaze at.. =P

the full moon..



slippers...



east coast..




yeah.. i think that's all, folks..
till next time..

sarah.

=)

life has been swell, i guess... just that over the camp, i was pretty worried.. about various things.

hmmm... what can i say?
i've still got massive homework amounts to complete and skating lessons are beginning to get tougher...

i'm bored... that's quit ironic actually..
i've got work to do and yet i'm bored.. >.<

anyway, yesterday was fathers' day.. and my dad's not here with me..
for all who taught he died, drop dead.
he's in indonesia.. so he had to celebrate fathers' day alone.. which is pretty sad. but once he comes home then we'll celebrate.. haha..
a belated one.. but that's better than nothing.

anyway, the world cup is going fine so far.. argentina really freaked me out.. scoring 6.. haha..
oh well, but i'm supporting Germany and France this year. so i decided to get both their jerseys. one jersey cost $70+.. i need 140 bucks then..
wish me luck saving!

=D

Little LuLu..

Life doesnt get any better than this.. ^^

ACJC, you fuck.

has anyone ever stole away your BEST friend? a person that was always by your side, no matter what? someone who you could call EVERYDAY and could spare you the time?
my best friend has been taken away from me by ACJC. i hate that school and vow never to go to that friggin school. the school has made him, my best friend, so busy that the time he has left for me is so minimal.. he apologises but it really isnt his fault. li's the school.. i miss him SO much! but sadly, he has no more time for me..

BJ!!

i like BJ... and for those morons who think BJ's a guy.. well, all i gotta say to you is that.. YOU'RE DUMBB!! haha... double B...
anyway, BJ is Body Jam.. it's way cool.. in no time, you're gonna see me thin and the credit will obviously go to me.. cause i put in the effort.. but it also goes to BJ... !!! haha.. yay.. =)
Mother's heading off to New Zealand for the next week...
i'll have dad around though.. so it should be fun..
well, have a great weekend ya'll!

yupp.. it shall do.. i guess.

On Sunday, Hannah brought her... * coughs *... friend to church. It was fun cause we went jamming.. and he knows howda play like the keyboard and guitar. He tried the drums though. Well, what could i do? Ziyang didn't come. but i couldn't blame him. i kinda understand what he's going through.

I didnt attend service because i had camp the past 3 days.. friday, saturday and sunday. so i arrived late. i walked like the freakin ' AYE.. from my school to friggin' dover ITE.. it was so scary.. DONT EVER DO THAT!!!! then from the ITE bus stop, i hailed a cab. MY GOODNESS!!! i was like half freaked anf dead.. the road is SOOOO long.. SO not gonna do that again.. people in the car look at me like i'm some kind of spazzer. yeah right!

I NEED ROOT BEER!!

so when i reached church, they were all heading from lunch. so i joined them. Hannah's friend, let's call him Jake( 'cause i like that name and this is MY blog), was pretty cool.. not the silent type.. well, at least that applies to me.. however, a few(i think) find him 'diao'... ignorant?
HE'S NOT!!!!

he likes CLICK FIVE!!! and that's COOL!!!! HAH!!
bet losers like you dont... [incoherently talking to you(the reader)]

click 5 is cute.. cause they wear tuxedos whenever they play.. like for videos and concerts.. THEY ROCK!! hahahahaha!!...

you suck if you dont listen to The Click Five..
and if you say i suck for listening to The Click Five, then...
YOU BETTER FIND A FRIGGIN SAFE PLACE TO HIDE CAUSE I'M COMING AFTER YOU!!!

dedicated to... them!

My sister is so gonna kill me for this. However, do enjoy!!

Sarah: So, my sister's pretty?

People of the world: Yeah. She is...

Sarah: And she's good with guys?

People of the world: I'm not sure... but I guess so.

Sarah: You're doubtful, huh?

People of the world: Well, yeah...

Sarah: So in other words, you are looking for evidence?

People of the world: Sure am...

Sarah: Here you go!!

HAHAHAHA!!









Haha... YEAH RIGHT! dream on suckers... the fun only starts now.. =P


Mr Charming...



Nice smiles...



I think they were eating ice cream.. am i right?



and she feeding him.. x)



fighting with spoons?!!? how immature..



anyway, Need more laughter? sure you do!



Now, he's feeding her?!!? what...



she's happy.. duh!



HOWEVER,...
HE'S VAIN!!! gasps!



but... she's satisfied.. =)




END!




However, let me fill you into one little secret.. but you can't tell anyone!

HE'S GAY!!



well, HAVE A NICE DAY!!

yeah i am..

I've just realized that I'm one troubled girl. My life is made up of horse shit. Like everything that I go through just adds up to my sorrow and the pile of shit. I always feel screwed and only a few things would make me feel really happy. When I have my Dad around, when I have ******* around me, and when I get what I want. But life is screwed up by the world so therefore, we don't always get what we want, do we? It's not that I'm spoilt or whatsoever. It's just really unfair that my life has to be controlled by boundaries, Mothers and they are like masters of the Sim. Gotta do what I'm assigned.. It's shit.

So today, I had chemistry extra lesson and well, cause Theo and I have the same Chemistry teacher, we had the class together. And god! ***** was like trying to grab his attention. Fuck! No one wants to hear your bullshit. Shut Up. I'm not trying to be mean but like you like him right? So tell him than say friggin' lame sentences. It gets on people's nerves. And poor Theo has put up with the nonsense. No one wants it. Take it back and piss off. You are like blinded by love or something. He doesn't like you. Get the picture?

Anyway, my common tests are coming and the stress to do great is getting heavier.. If I could hold on, I'll survive. I have absolutely no confidence to ace my tests. It's the confidence thing. Like I'm not sure whether the answers I write down are right or wrong. I need help!

Am I being a bitch now?
[Do not answer the question]

So lately, I did something bad and now I have gotten my retribution. I shouldn’t have done it but I did. And therefore, I must pay… this stinks but it can’t be helped.

I gonna change my phone! Haha. Well, I’m thinking of Cheryl’s and Charmaine’s phone but do they mind? Do you guys mind??

This is for you..

This is specially for Ziyang.. since you are such a loyal visitor of my useless blog. And always get disappointed when you come, this is for you.. haha!

So the O level results are out and Hannah did really well. So did Chork. I’m so proud of him. From a 17 to an 8. haha.. he’s is so smart. Hehe.. Hannah’s gonna try to stay in Hwa Chong. And I told Chork to try out for Hwa Chong. I hope he is able to make it. Brice did okay and I guess Tim’s gonna try out for AC. I mean he can. Through Soccer. Yeah… Sharina had a pretty average score. But I’m not sure if she’s satisfied with what she got.

I just realized something. I love talking to Theodore. It’s just so easy. Like I can say whatever I want and he’ll be okay with it. But the only problem is that I feel he doesn’t have opinions. He doesn’t really say much. All he does is answer the questions or make lil remarks. It’s all so bootzy. But I plan on inviting him to church next Sunday. He says he doesn’t mind. But if he feels lazy, then he wouldn’t go. Haha.. but I’ll try my very hardest to make him go!! Haha.. since I don’t really get a chance to speak to him in school, I’ll speak to him outside of school.. hehe^^

So today, Ziyang taught me how to do a drum roll.. is it one word? Oh well..
Haha.. it was pretty funny. But I cant really get the gist of the beat and how to drum it as good as he can.. I guess practice will do the trick.. I will master the roll! Haha.. whatever..

Is this long enough to make you feel less disappointed? Lemme know!!

yupp..

Last week has been so pumped up with all sorts of emotions. Good and bad. Like i told you, KOH picks on my hair. Right.. and i totally caught her in the act. I followed Sheena to go look for her one day and the first thing that she said to me was, "Sarah~! Your hair ah.." and like there was nothing wrong with it. So i was like, "What? It's all pinned back." and she kinda stuttered after.. haha!! Mom has finally let me back on the ice.. but i have to start my whole skating course again. This time i have two friends that are joining me. So the price is cheaper. That's why she allows. But i feel it's pretty wasteful but well, i rather be on the ice than not at all. It's my life to skate.. well, kinda.

Know what it feels like being rejected? This is the bad thing that happened to me this week. And i'm still a grouch over it. So i was being lame and asked this guy, Matt*, a random question in a very sarcastic manner. And it was sent through a short message (SMS). So you know, you can figure what my tone would be like. We were kinda talking about this girl called Amelia. That she has grown to be really pretty. And well, i ask him, "Do you find me pretty~?" like i was being sarcastic!! dumbfuck. And well, the answer was no. i could feel like my heart slowing down and shattering into many screwed up pieces. The rejection that i felt was something that was hard to overcome. It's like my world was torn apart.. and when we carried on with this topic, i suddenly realise something which was really true.
If it doesn't work out between us, all the 6 years of great friendship will go to waste. 6 GREAT YEARS! Yupp.. a sure waste, it will be.. so i think i'm better off being his good friend than just a memory of a past.

I need a new pair of figure skates. Gonna start classes in march!! can't wait... the inter-school competition will not be long after and hopefully, Vivian and Jess would be skilled up by then. Then we shall join the competition together as a group. I really hope that they'll be friends instead of competition. I'm so sick of having to prove myself to competitors. Showing them that I AM better than them. You see it in the scores.. what else is there i need to prove? HAHAHA!! =P

Wonder how Barak's doing. He's out of the country and it has never been so long since i last chatted with him. I miss the corny jokes and funny stuff. I hope he's alright.. God's with him. Yeah. He should be..

Anyway, i wish ya'll a blessed week ahead.

* His name isnt Matt. duh.

I WILL SHAVE YOUR HEAD BALD!!!

[ please mind the language, understand that i'm pissed!! ]

I HATE KOH! she's my teacher but i dont feel that she deserves the respect that i once used to give her but calling her "Miss Koh." now, it's KOH!!! like she picks on me. if it aint my socks, it's my hair. if it's not my hair, it may be my attire. what's wrong with my hair?? ALL my fringe is at the back!! cant you understand that i hate using fucking pins? that's so girly! but yeah.. i'm a girl.. one that doesnt use pins!!! what? are you like jealous of our hairstyles? that we can pull it off and you cant? BITCH!!

i've got this friend, right? and KOH goes up to her and asks her why is her fringe, some long and some short.. have you heard of layering?? dumbass.. bitch in front of me once more and i will SHAVE YOU BALD!! not that i could but you'll be on my list of totally-screwed-by-me teachers. and action will be taken on my last day of school.. hahaha!!

i cant believe i actually respected you once.. and now, you're acting like i owe you something.. well, i dont.. check again..

I HATE KOH!!

HAHAHAHAHAHAHHAHAHAHAHAHAHA!!!! i'm so evil... >=]

school..

school has started... and well, my class is wayy quiet.. although i think everyone's great, it still needs more action.

JJ's really exhausted from 2 days of school.. he need rest.. well, i wish him God's blessings!!

Wen told me that he's 172cm.. like i believe that? or prpobably he changed.. i hope.

bible study's now on saturday...but i got to go to school for like the whole day!! NOO.. that's sad.

anyway, i wanna watch my show.. see ya.

untitled. cause i really dont know what title i should give.

Yesterday, i gave Ziyang letter with a cd sealed inside which i bought. I thought the cd was pretty good. A christian band, Tree 63, which plays music that are a little heavy. But it's alright. Because Ziyang's taste in music is a bit far off from slow christian songs.

Hannah, von and i went shopping!! but we didn't buy much. Just a couple of nail polishes and von bought herself a really nice bag. Which she obviously loves!! we went to subway for lunch.. but before that, i had met with chork. It was rather awkward for me. It's been like a year since we've seen each other and he had grown really tall. Try 188cm? I felt like a little dwarf.

And that made me realise that when i look down on people, the feeling that the 'dwarfs' feel is really something uncalled for. God told us to love his people not look down on them. Everyone is equal. Why must there be this mocking thing? It's just wrong. Like on the bus, on our way back from shopping, there was this wayy obnoxious guy.. he was like calling the person ,that he was talking to on the phone, an idiot! Can you beat that? And he was like “ Cut that Crap!” emphasising on the Cs.. but we were laughing at him.. haha!

Well, anyway, i wasn't really into the shopping thing. Cause it's not really my thing. But hannah and yvonne were really trying very hard to find something that i would love buying for myself. Like skirts. EWWW!! haha.. i tried the skirt thing already but apparently, i don't dig it. That why now i'm back to my usual jeans, board shorts and shirt thing. If i were to wear a skirt, i would have to find a nice shirt that would go along with it. And the shirt would obviously be like just right or tight fitting. I don't like that. Oh wells.. i did find one nice skirt though. But it was expensive.. so i didn't buy it.... OH! And we took pictures [look below]

At night, after bible study, hannah and i hopped on over to mother's office. On our way, i told her about the fart thing.. not that you guys need to know, but anyway she laughed. Then we talked about Ziyang's long hair.. haha.. that it was getting longer. And that it was getting a bit weird, not for us, but for other people( possibly ).. we were used to it already. And Hannah told me that when she goes for her next haircut at Audrey's, she'll drag Ziyang and Neil. Haha.. it was so funny.. oh wait.. on the train, we saw this guy with an extra finger..it was freaking hannah out! Haha.. so cool!

Keep it real!


it'll remain a memory.


Kids!! =P


our nails are multi coloured. but you cant really see.


this one's blur. sorry. the picture was really tiny. i resized it.

i really didnt know!

i just visited Ziyang's blog. who knew that he appreciated Hannah and I that much. well, it's pretty touching.

i'm not sure why but it's like when the 3 of us hang, it feels like there's noboby who can break this chain of bonds. something so strong that it can NEVER be ruined. Previously, it was always the ACC Clan. which consisted of Hannah, Neil, Elroy and I. The four of us made the clan and we always hanged out after church. The four of us were tight. until Elroy started skipping church. then James came into the picture. and if Elroy came, it'll be the 5 of us. Tight and all.
soon, James had to go to the army and we were left with 3. again! and James kinda changed over a period of time. All of us could feel it.
and along came Ziyang! well, he joined the 'clan' with some hidden agendas but anyway, he's hanging with us now. and Neil, well, he kinda changed too. i didnt like it. Hannah feels it's awkward and Ziyang thinks he's eccentric. so he doesnt really hang with us no more.
and as you can see... the clan couldnt remain as one the whole time. people were coming in and going out. never stable. and now, Ziyang, Hannah and I. we make a great team! i assure you that this one will remain and never disperse. we will stand united! under one God.. it truly is very genuine. aint nobody will break the bond.
this is why i'm SOOO certain that the chains of bond are solid are durabe!! plus, i think we'll go FARR!!!
and like when i'm with Ziyang, i feel like i can tell him anything. like i do with Hannah. and it's really strange coz even when Elroy was my god-bro(unoffically. duh), i would tell him stuff but still i will keep my distance. like i wouldnt fool around with him. but with Ziyang, i call him many nasty names and i torture him. which is seriously fab. though we arent related ***, i feel that i'm really close to him like i am with my own sister.

Ziyang, ask me about the meaning of the 3 'stars'..

well.. have a great day ahead of you!

some really harsh poems..

all my poems are untitled.

number 1.

You want me to keep peace
Keep the family as one, with ease.
You're making it harder each time i try.
i would rather you be out of my life.

i dont like you.
not one bit.
i wanna be free!!
cant you see?

Being a figure skater isnt stupid.
neither is it dumb.
it's aint useless.
dont insult it unless you're one!

so you yell, scream and shout at me.
i sit at a corner, looking up to thee.
crying in silence,
hoping to be freed.

You make my life so miserable.
thinking about it makes me feel small.
you dont bother about how anyone feels anymore.
i dont think you ever did before.

Why is it that i'm stuck with you?
suffering in silence,
what am i to do?
i only want my dad by my side.

You aint the best mother.
and you dont have to be.
it's just my luck i'm stuck with you.
oh Lord, help me get through.

Push it any further and i will breakdown.
until then, how i feel has not been found.
you dont have the right to judge me,
when you keep wallowing in self-pity.

i pray everyday that it'll be better.
but once you get home,
it's only how you feel that matters.
you make me wanna moan.

i only wanna stick to my dad.
and not you.
i dont need to experience your fury.
i'm good on my own.

i dont wanna live like this anymore.
i wanna resolve this problem once and for all.
help me get over this really quickly.
for it is only you(the Lord) who makes me happy..


number 2..( freakin jealousy against my sister)

Why do you always get to be something i cant?
call me spoiled, like you know who i am.
you've never been called 'fat'.
so what do you know about that?
NOTHING!!

You may seem all perfect and fun.
but trust me, you're not one.
i act like nothing is wrong.
seriously, you're just being conned.

Piss off, yeah?
i dont need you here.
go do your thing far away from me.
i dont want you near.

so you're more highly thought of than me.
and i'm like a little girl, the age of 3.
i'm never voted to lead,
only to do the silly.

An angel in a play?
oh please, like that's a step up.
you are an I/C of the deco team!
now, that's something!!

gee.. whatever.

some pictures.. for fun.

what a pose! x)



Kicked.



Sure Royalty



wanna have a nap, i see..



awww.. he looks so cute.



The World's Biggest Bear..



Ninja's hide their identity, blending with the shadows.



2 Ninjas Kickback!



Life From The Closet.


Well, that's all for now.. it aint much, but good enough.

hehe...

howdie ya'll! Believe it or not, I'm using my PSP to post this entry... It's way cool!! Anyhoo, I just ended camp. It was great! I'll put up the pictures once i've uploaded em'...
Anyway, our christmas service is coming soon! OH JOY! Well, i'll be playing an angel and some other roles. But they're all non-speaking roles... so yeah. However, I've set myself a challenge! This year, I've got to bring a friend, irregardless of who they are. Well, actually i've already got someone in mind. But i've got to ask.

preetty!

well these are some pictures from my sister's Grad night..








so it's just two. tag me if you wanna see more.. kinda lazy to put it up..

lalalalaa..

i cant wait to go to america and visit all my friends and grandparents!! anyway... i had camp last week and a spider bit me.. haha.. my whole had swelled.. and my sister rubbed it in by poking it..haha.. she's such a dork!
i'm gonna get my skates!! my dad's gonna help me get 'em.. i can hardly wait!

picture..

my sis and people of the world..



Jammers..

Right..

So i'm like sitting here, waiting for something to happen.
Feeling cold, scared and numb.
Wonder what it's going to be like,
sitting down here like an empty appartment.
I can hear my heart thumping in my ears.
Oh Lord, am i shedding a tear?
Why does it feel like shit, when in reality,
looking at the circumstances, it's actually quite a bliss.
What is this thing that i'm feeling?
It's like something i've felt once in my life before.
Man.. now i'm stuck in this stupid situation.
and to tell you the truth, i hardly feel liberated.
if it was in church, i'd be glad.
I'll feel comfy, like in my own bed.
There aint nothing to be satisfied about.
besides that i'm all tired out..

Dundee Street..

Along the roads of Dundee Street,
Lives a nice old lady who makes wonderful spagetti,
And sews many great dresses.
she has 5 cats that keep her company,
And plays this game called 'many wild guesses'.

Her good friend is mexican,
And she is just as fun.
Her name is Margot and she keeps cats too.
They go out for tea and buns,
starring into each others eyes of blue.
It's way cool.

So i get to visit them every now and then.
Oh.. How i miss them so.
It's going to be winter the next time i see them.
My grandmother and her good friend.

whatever..

How dare you demoralise me?
crushing all my hopes and dreams.
Telling me it's a waste of time,
how mean can you be?

I pray and weep.
Hoping for a miracle to happen.
My faith is strong, My heart is pure.
Oh Lord, let me not be weakened.

This has been my life long dream,
Ever since i was a kid.
In one second, it was crushed
By that woman you gave to me.

Aren't mothers suppose to be supportive,
Giving all the support they can give?
I'd rather forget about my dream,
because you gave her to me.

whatever,,

Fun.. i was being stupid.

What is it all about?
Fun, is it the only one?
That helps me cope,
keeps me afloat?

Fun.
I love it when it involves guns.
Shooting people down,
making them run.

The opposite of fun,
is nuf.
You think you're so tough?
Well, it kinda makes me barf.

What have you got that i don't?
Besides that i'm fun and you're not?
Doing what you're told.
I bet you were being bought.

Yes. How fun it is.
To make people pissed.
Making lame remarks
and getting shot down be punks.

My church.. just so you know, Alive Community Church.

I only stepped in when i was 12.
and i felt really welcomed.
They made me seem important
and i felt the hearts warming.

My sister was there with me too.
That made me feel something completely new.
For a moment, it was too much.
I thought it wouldn't last.

Their praise turned me inside out.
Their worship turned me outside in.
i soon felt that i was spinning round
until i could not feel a single thing.
It soon came to an end.
I thought i could no longer feel God's presence again.

Along came Yvonne.
She helped me see
that problems didn't matter
when God had all the power
to blow my troubles away.
Boy, did i feel better!

What an awesome experience.
It'll forever be entrenched to my heart.
And I'll never forget this church
which helped me realise my love for Thee.

The one and only, ACC!

friends.. uh huh..

Some friends are gross,
some are weird.
But those that i despise
are the ones who jeer.

The worst of the lot would be --------a [ just pronounce the 'a' ]
for she is such a dweeb,
i can't even give way.
Would she ever stop for a minute to think that,
that ain't right?
To be fussing around all day and night?

If you think I'm being mean,
just stop, look and see.
If you know me,
then you'll know I'm really patient.
And now, i can't even stand this person!

Because of this reason,
my mood's displeasin' .
But once I'm older,
I'll get over.
While Miss Nasty is getting even colder.

No basic manners or principles.
Her poor parents.
They must feel do discouraged.
Cheer up, it's okay.
Leave her be.
Wait, you'll see.
She'll be dealt with ungentlely.
Not by me but by a stranger that will never flee.

Herself.

My uttmost cry [Prayer]

Oh Lord,
I plead that you hear my cry.
To see what my heart desire.
I cannot handle the situation.
I'm bounded by my own limitations.
There ain't no other reason.
I wanna be in thy presence.

I need you more than ever now.
Even more than i did before.
The truth be told,
i rather skip town or even fall.
It's too much to take!
Worse than some blasting debate.
I would hide or run away,
but you've made me realised that,
that ain't the way.
I look up to the sky,
the sun shining in my eyes,
and i seriously wonder why.

How can someone be so judgmental
against the will of God?
Judging the house of the Lord.
Isn't that a major flaw?
Why didn't i stand up to defend your name?
It's now not mine to gain.

Forever trying to find the answer.
But with her pulling me even lower,
I feel like dirt under the earth,
stuck in a black universe.
Who can I turn to, besides you?
What else can I do?

I want her to disappear from all i can see,
but i know that is not possible.
I need time to be alone.
Away from whatever that's here.
Take me away! Far away!
So i can be close to you all day.

My time ain't up yet,
but i feel that it is.
Why is it so hard to live?
Life is a gift from you.
But i guess it's mine to choose.
Whether to be true or to be screwed.

Loving ain't easy and you know it!
My life is all so cheezy and i'm getting dizzy.
Just to be me, it's all the same.
Flying high, being chained.
How ironic it is.
Sarah, the person always blamed.

Love..

Love ain't easy, love's real tough.
Love's so hard, it makes me barf.
5 was number, now it's 4.
and for that, i thank the Lord!

It's the B's and the J's.
Who am i to them?
It's kinda hard to say.
Whether or not I'll be with Mr right,
it up to those who stays.

My billboard lives!
Unless 3 names are strike off,
I shall be amidst.
How am i suppose to think
when something i can't control
is making me bleed?

Oh.. the pain and agony!
My love for you would be true.
If you're the one,
please say, “ I do.”
Forgetting the past and remembering the new,
making up for times which were screwd.

The last 4 names,
I shan't reveal.
For i shall wait till time is still,
wishing that I'll be with you.
The choice ain't mine to choose
but the Lord's to deal.


*product of Sarah.*

for audrey and jo..

gee.. today, i kinda gave a very big wrong impression to my two friends, audrey and jo. i shared with them the dream i had last night and gave them a major wrong impression that isnt very good.
i dreamt that i went to the polo shop and saw this polo tee that cost $138. and i only had $131. so it wasnt enough and so i had to go back and get the tee another day.
and then i told Aud and Jo that i always have enough money with me. !!!! but like that because i like finding out the prices 1st.. i aint a extravegent freak.. ahhh!!! sorie ya'll.. gave you a money spending freak sarah impression =X
i suddenly thought of it and like.. i dont want you guys to feel that i'm some freak, from another planet, who likes money for the wrong reasons.. kay'?

once you read this, please tag!!! haha.. so i know.

thankew..

anyway, nothing much happened today..

sweet.

today was pretty fun. we went to watch a movie, the cave. my goodness.. it scared the day out of me.. yeah.. JJ, YZ, Jon[not sure why he suddenly came, but i can infer], DY, KaiL and I.. it was wayy fun.. i think.
the show creeped me and KaiL out and like the guys have the cheek to show us their smug looking face.. we were screeaming during the show.. yeah.. it was freaky.
and like i promised JJ i'll talk to him.. but like Jon and YZ were talking to him, so i couldnt really talk.. yeah.. i'm sorie. we'll go out again and i shall talk to you kay'?
sorie!!
so like i'm gonna be so dead.. havent touched my term-break homework. whoa! i'm gonna be kill..
and cheryl has cramped my mind with the "aye'. you know, Brother Bear..
haha..
it's so cute..
and like on monday, we gotta wear the stupid ties? how stupid is that??? like a freaking blue tie, with a background of white.
YUCK!!!
anyway, i shall be going now..

* i'm still waiting for your birthday to come. cant wait..

how would you feel?

hectic week i suppose.. got all my results back for the common tests.. and realised how insensitive people can be. like when they get higher marks than you do, they cry right in front of you .. makes you feel like jumping off the tallest building right? my goodness. like give me a break.. you already passed your overall!! i didnt! dont bitch around in front of me. i dont take it well. and it's like some of my other friends are feeling that some people can be realli insensitive.. so i dont alone! thankew!! you know, i realli hope insensitive people would realise how much hurt they have caused to people. i not being judgemental or whatsoever but i realli think they outta know what's it like when people are insensitive towards you. i can tell you now, insensitive people, you're gonna hate the shit out of it! you will not like it one bit! so quit being insensitive before i treat you like dust underneath my foot. and dont even think of apologizing then.. cause it WILL BE OVER!!!!!!

my dad's back for 5 days.. yay!

Our storiee!! you gotta read this..

Unedited version)
GroupWork
Information: The " I " is a guy and please dont apply real commom sense into the story

Sheena
Joanne
Sarah
Cheryl
Weiyi
Audrey
Yi ting 
 
 
I looked at the bright full moon. Stars glittered at the pitch black sky. I could not even see my hands in front of me! Suddenly, the nighbours' cat let out an excruciating screech. I dashed out of the house wondering what on earth had happened. I saw a bloody carcas lying on the pavement. Suddenly i had the urge to sniff the carcas. I knelt on the stone hard ground as i debated in my mind whether to try it. Curiosity overcomed me as i bent down, nose heaving the pavement. Then i knew he had come. Out of the blue, the cat's eyes popped out of the head and bounced off ! Extremely shocked, I fell backwards, landing on something that felt very meaty. I reached down to grab what had made my landing soft, hoping it was not another organ of the cat. I realised i was holding a luminous green substance in my hand and shrieked. I tried to flick it off, but to no avail. Instantly, something grabbed my other hand and I screamed into the cold quiet night. My heart pumbing vigorously, i turned around to face a hooded figure standing silently in the shadows. It was a dementor! He was the prettiest man i have ever seen. (Ahaha XD) I stepped backwards hastily, frightened by the darkness that surrounded the dementor, the dead cat and me. I felt the coldness seeping into my skin; it was draining every single drop of happiness from my tainted soul. The world started to swirl around me and a storm began to brew. A hurricane formed and I got sucked up by it, along with the dementor and nothing else. The world stopped and instantly my butt kissed the stoned floor. Sitting there, stunned, I hastily got to my feet the moment reality came back to me, only to find that the world was starting to freeze! Baby mammoths started to run towards me, licking my pale face. (It disappeared later in the story XD) I scanned around the area, realising my watch wasn't ticking. Suddenly the dementor appeared out of no where and started to walk towards me. He broke the ice and said "I am your father brother soul-mate, come to the dark side. And together, we shall rule the world!" I shivered at the thought of it."
" Silver or gold have i none. But such as i have, i give unto thee. In the name of my father, I command you to be free!" I watched him struggle to save his soul from escaping his flesh but it was useless.
[Yaoi starts from here] "Then before i die, I have but one wish," using the force, he pulled me to his side and began to kiss me.
The kiss felt bitter sweet.It seemed like my existence was meant for this. The passion was burning my senses, I stared into his dark blue eyes and at that moment, our wolrds collided.
We sank deeper into out kiss, oblivous to the world around us, nothing else mattered. I felt as a hole in me was filled and for the first time in my life, i was complete.Our lips parted slowly and he whispered in my ear,
"After I die, eat me, suck my bones dry and then I can become a part of you."  He fell into my arms, motionless. I leaned over and sank my canines into his neck, sucking his oh-so-sweet (-.-)blood. For once, I felt life gushing through my veins. My tears were running dry, and time was still. I carried his cold, empty body to the edge of the cliffs. Holding him tightly in my arms, I plunged off the cliff. Time was beginning it's journey once again.
"I love you." T_T

pictures.. fun...

My name.. cool eh?



My church drums which were previously used.. now, they're RED!!



BOO-YEAH! the orange guitar!! transparent too.. sweet eh? haha..



that's right! i am sticking my tongue at you!! *saliva splatters*

BYEE YA'LL!!

harsh..

my life's all fucked up and i'e got a mom who will never shut up... sounds harsh yeah? but it like so utterly true... so i've prayed that God relieve me from this painful suffering.. and i'm still waiting for a miracle.. yeah.. so wait with me. haha.. see ya\

wow..

it has been a very long time since i blogged... oh wells..
my dad gave me an ipod.. and he left for indonesia.. he's gonna work there for like 2 years or something...
and when he left, i didnt feel like doing anything... even going for bible study... i wanted to skip it.. but in the end i told myself that 'dad would tell me to commit..' so i went for bs..
it just feels realli weird without my dad...

this my heart's prayer to you...

oh Lord!! why izzit always that i screw up whenever i think of you know what... i mean... how can this be so? i wanna concentrate on you right now.. you know that... help me get over myself.. Lord, you help me along... amen.

right... you know what? i'm screwed~! haha... actually, i'm not.. coz God's helping me along...

*plane*

why.. it's already over... cant wait for the next!

SOS is over.. the teaching was really great.. dont worry vonz.. i made notes, with you in mind.. haha.. once you come back, i'll show it to you..
actually, something personal happened and i aint gonna share it on my blog.. far to personal.. only my best friend will get to know of it.. sorie..
anyway... i didnt go to the learning lab today so i'll be going to jo's class on monday. actually they said that i'm not suppose to go to her class coz that isn't my make up class day but i beg and i pleaded and finally, they were willing to make an exception this once... yeah! haha... and coz it's the holidays.. she said that this was my holiday present or something.. haha.. oh wells.. at least i'm able to go to Jo's class and not some boring make up class with happens on tuesdays.. BORING!!!

why.. it's already over... cant wait for the next!

SOS is over.. the teaching was really great.. dont worry vonz.. i made notes, with you in mind.. haha.. once you come back, i'll show it to you..
actually, something personal happened and i aint gonna share it on my blog.. far to personal.. only my best friend will get to know of it.. sorie..
anyway... i didnt go to the learning lab yesterday so i'll be going to jo's class on monday. actually they said that i'm not suppose to go to her class coz that isn't my make up class day but i beg and i pleaded and finally, they were willing to make an exception this once... yeah! haha... and coz it's the holidays.. she said that this was my holiday present or something.. haha.. oh wells.. at least i'm able to go to Jo's class and not some boring make up class with happens on tuesdays.. BORING!!!

alright...

the other day, i went for cultural porpourri.. it was kinda nice.. oh wells..

anyway.. i'm at church now...

i'm promising myself that i will visit qtss this week..

i still got jerome and yiyang's shirt to do.. he's starting to bug me for it.. haha..

CHIA WEN IS BACK!!! after 2 whole months.. boy.. did i miss her!!! we're going for dinner together later..

it's my mom's birthday today... yupp.. oh wells..

Neil got burnt by the grill.. haha! serves you right for being so dumb!

SOS is coming up.. 5-9 of june.. i think.. yeah! it's held at TJ as always... you're free to come if you want. you can follow me.. yeah.. need more details??? call Sarah at 90187569.. woo hoo!!!

i'm off... i still got homework to do.. but i dont wanna do em.. who cares..

so okayyy... i'm gonna find something to do.. or something.. go play halo 2... haha.. i dunnoe... it's okay..

i WILL find something to do.. yeah!

boo...

i survived a day without a phone... yah! oh wells...

DID YA'LL KNOW THAT SHEENA EATS 5 BUCKS WORTH OF CANTEEN FOOD? HAHA!!!

anyway, the other day, Chork told me abt Wayne from QTSS dancing on tv.. haha... he dances weird... oh wells..

okay.. so like i had this encounter with this guy, Pierce. He looks like Barak! soooooo HOT!!! haha... whoops! anyway.. yeah.. he wears braces.. Barak did... he's freckly.. Barak is too. the only thing is that he has a shorter 'fringe'... doesn't spike his hair... Looks like Barak when his hair isn't spiky.. haha... but he's taller than Barak.. B, Start growing dude!!

so today, i called my mom using sheena's phone coz ya know, my phone aint with me... i ask my mummy whether she would be wiling to pay 100 bucks for ACJC concert tickets... and she was like " yeah.. anything for you." it's was really awkward... haha... then she was like $100 or $200... geez... mom.. i thought you would wanna actually save money on this sort of things.. and my mom actually even wanted to help Sheena pay for the concert tickets...[ it's a 100 bucks] allowing her to go for free!!! but i didnt tell sheena that... coz it wouldn't be good... oh wells...

so like we'll be going for the cultural thing.. haha... some funny concert*not literally*
whee! oh wells... off i go... i still got a bad hand... and i can type this long... wow! can i self-praise? okayy.. i shall not.. God would not be pleased... :)

bye ya'll!

i'm growing dumb.. why is that so?

So, on tuesday, i ran my 2.4 and i fell.. got a hairline fracture on my wrist then on friday, after i sent sheena home, i got off the cab and realised that my phone wasn't with me.. freak! i lost my phone... so i made a lost and found report already.. i got a feeling, it's wont come back to me.. so i'm gonna get a new phone... geez!
time for sleep... going to church later... mothers' day... all the same... blah blah blah...
i'm gonna be in a horrible mood on monday... so yeah.. see ya...

i want my phone.... never mind.. new phone, here i come..

Hahaha...

so it has been a while since i last wrote.. oh wells... coz it's kinda boring tying blog entries... I'm at church.. neil's being weird and ziyang is being inflenced.. haha... all of them are going insane.. neil's is mad... hahaha... he's a weirdo sorta guy.. haha.. it's like they use some plastic thing and rubbed it against my sis's bottle and said that now everytime she drinks her water, she'll think of the plastic thing... oh.. how lame can they get? it's soooo lame... oh wells... went to east coast to play rugby yesterday... argh... my hand hurts now... neil's strangling my sis now.. haha... oh wells... gtg.. gonna go jamming, after my sis finishes her work..!! woo hoo...